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2010-03-11T07:54:00.003+08:00

it's 7.52am and i'm already awake even though my class starts at 11.30am. this is one of the two days whn i can sleep in in a week and yet i have to wake up so early. why? why can't i sleep for a little bit longer? ok anyway just a heads up, i bought a car already. actually 2 weeks ago. HAHA! have been too lazy to write lah. it's a 2004 toyota corolla hatchback automatic 4 door, car reg. 1***-***. yay no more having to wait for buses. no more having to keep to stupid bus timetables and not being able to do the simplest thing like buying groceries. no more having to run after buses when they are 5 mins earlier than the timetable *evil glare*. well i suppose it's still alright since it's summer now. i am so not looking forward to winter. big rain and big wind. as i've mentioned before, umbrellas DO NOT work in perth. you can go out with boots, 3 layers of clothes, a waterproof jacket and an umbrella and still come back wet. and and.. i really hate the part where the wind blows from all different directions causing your umbrella to go upside down and inside out. get what i mean? people say it's during winter when you can dress up in pretty furry coats and wear nice long boots to make you look tall, but it's not pretty anymore when you know you are going to get all wet. well even though it's not for the full 3 mths of winter, but still, it's a pain.

enuf complaining, let's get to the good part! so.... the good part is.... well i got a car, which i've just talked about. oh and i've got 2 days of uni and 3 days of work this sem! this is soooo good! before i had 3 days of uni and 4 days of work! try that! thanks to curtin uni for setting good timetables so that i can arrange all my classes into two days! and thanks to Mike (my boss) for being able to arrange me 3 days of work but still work 20 hours a week! this is my final semester and i really don't want to screw this up.. yea.. speaking of final semester, i've been doing a lot of thinking.. what lies ahead of my future? where am i destined to go? if i stay here will i be able to find a job? if i do find a job will i be able to cope with the working environment here? coz i know, being an outsider, meaning not an australian, working in big companies or even mid sized companies, we are nothing but second class. they don't look at us the way they do with australians. the pay may be good but the tax is even higher. even if i do stay here, will i be able to live with the so ever boring and dead relaxing life? i remember i talked to my cousin, Ah Lung about how the stores here are closed at 5pm, 6pm for supermarkets like Coles and Woolworths. and he said "what? i'm complaining about how the supermarkets here close at 9pm!" HA this is funny. and sad. sigh.. well i suppose my fate lies in the hand of the Australian government. when they finalize the oh-so-mighty SOL list, i will know where i stand in this country.

well, i guess that's all for this morning.

P/S. Mom i know you are wondering, so yes i bought green apples to eat, but not everyday. and yes i am drinking chlorophyll and yes i do drink lots of water everyday. now you can be less worried =)

bck in perth. again.

2010-02-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

finally had the time to sit in front of my laptop and slack ever since i've reached Perth.

So how's Perth? all i can say is, it's freakin HOT! it was like 42 degrees today man!! wthhhhh i was literally sweating even when i was working (fyi i work in a shopping centre which mean indoor with air conditioning) arghh i suppose it's better than the 47 degrees during 08' christmas. woohoo lucky me i wasn't here during that time.

anyway, anythg new with me? nope, still the same got work. but i am looking ard for cars now. have been goin ard looking at private sellers cars and dealer cars.. found a few good ones but they weren't willing to cut on their prices. so, too bad for me.

oh there's sumthg i gotta share with u guys. there's this thing called Lilash (u can click on the link). It's from the America and apparently it stimulates growth of your eyelashes. it's around $USD140 i thk for a tube. and the good thing is, it really works!! my co-worker bought one off ebay 2 mths ago, and her eyelashes are like twice the length and the thickness of her original ones!! ENVY~ Apparently her friends have been using it for over a year alrdy and their eyelashes are all really long and thick! arghh i want one too, considering my short and 'barely there' eyelashes. but.. but... they're so expensive! anyway, for those of you who have just too much money to spend, go ahead they really DO work, trust me! i've seen it with my own eyes. the changes in my co-worker and her friends' eyelashes is truly remarkable.

oh yay i wrote more than i intended to. btw i got 8 for my IELTS. phew~ i got 7.0 for my writing which is just at the borderline. thank God for that. okie doke i shall sign off now and pls pray for me that i will find a good car at a reasonable price soon, bcoz i can't stand having to walk to the bus stop and taking the bus at 42 degrees heat everyday since im working evyday now. pretty please~

Long time no see everyone

2010-01-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

It's been ages, and i do mean ages since i last written on my blog. mayb it was the oh-so-ever-boring lifestyle in Perth that made me turn into a boring person. I need to be in a place that brings the best out of me. I need to be with people that brings the best out of me. Not saying that my fellow friends in Perth are boring, but the place itself is boring, it's hard to 'pretend' to be happening.

I had a sudden urge to write on my blog once again, all bcoz of one reason.

I sat for my IELTS exam this morning. The listening and reading component were easy, but when i got to the writing component of the test, i was completely lost. i didn't know where to start. now how should i write the introduction, the body and the conclusion. i've lost my skills of writing a good essay which i've 'sorta' acquired during high school. well, not saying that i could write really well back then, but at least i had won competitions haha! but this time, i didn't know what words to use, i didn't know how i could connect each sentence together nicely with those fancy English words and phrases. sigh.. disappointing. some of you may thk that since i'm in uni and i have to write reports and assignments it shud be an easy task for me, but i can tell u, NOT AT ALL! in uni we mainly do researches on various topics, and we elaborate on the main points that are found in articles. we do not just start writing on a blank piece of paper and wahlah, comes out a perfectly structured and grammar/vocabulary-error-free essay.

sad lah.

ok i will endeavour to write more often on my blog, even when my life is really boring and all i do everyday is work-home-eat-sleep i will still write them all down here. at least i can practise writing in English lah, though it would be a very boring blog. i can almost imagine how it would look like

01/03 - today i woke up and caught the bus at 9.20am, got to work by 10 and started working till 5pm. then i took the bus at 5.08pm and got home by 5.40. then i took a shower, had dinner, and watched some hk series on my laptop and slept.

02/03 - today's post will be the same as yesterday's. so pls refer to the previous post thank you.

03/03 - same lah read yesterday's post

04/03 - "

05/03 - "

-no more entries-

*whack in the head*

after meeting up with my sister and relatives in KL, i realized what a boring person i've turned into. when i was in KL and Hong Kong, i see people dressing up really nicely, they seem to be always on the go and happy with their lives, so different to the kind of life i have in Perth.

In Perth, even when i have nice clothes to wear, i don't even feel like wearing them and most of the times i just go out with singlet and shorts, and a pair of havaianas. i sometimes can't even be bothered to go out, coz there's just no place that u can go to. Maccas, KFC? oh please. i've even lost interests in getting to know new things, to meet new people. that's not good! i've been so used to my boring life and prolly, my brain is used to being boring. Ughh~

i've been told to just leave Perth if it isn't the place for me. seriously, it does have a detrimental effect on my social life. well, it is definitely something to think about. i mean, true the quality of life is higher in aus, the currency is higher and we can earn good money, but wat's the use of all that if u're not even happy with ur own lifestyle? somethg for me to ponder upon as i am graduating soon.

that's it for me today and i shall see you guys soon! (i hope) =)

2009-11-02T14:22:00.008+08:00

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Whinging post

2009-10-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

Each semester, when it comes to pre-exam period, i find myself coming here and start whinging about the exam timetable. Reason is simple. Curtin's exam timetabling SUCKS!!! BIG TIME!

why is it that every single semester ever since my 1st year in uni, i've always had 4 of my exams in 7 days? why is it that for this sem, i'm having as crappy a timetable that i had for the last sem?? 4 units in 4 days??!! Come on! they just want us accounting and finance students to fail?? other major students have their exams spread across 2 weeks. while ours? 1st exam on the 1st day. and the rest on the consecutive days. wat the hell are they doing? and this sem, im doing 3 hard units and 1 easy one. 3 hard units ey!

first exam 6.45pm
second exam 6.45pm, which goes on for 3 hrs, which means i finish exam at 9.45pm (crazy huh??)
third exam which is the next day 3.30pm. how am i supposed to have sufficient time to recover from the previous day and still revise for this subject?
fourth exam 9.00am which also happens to be the hardest unit for this sem.

GOD! by the time i get to the 3rd day, i would have been all drained and have no energy to fight for the last exam which is the hardest unit. (btw my internal mark for this unit is just on the passing bench)

whinging whinging whinging. yes i am whinging bcoz i hate it! i hate it that they have to do this to us every time! i hate it that other students have their exams spread out so they have enough time to prepare for the exams. to make things worst, we still had assignments and quizzes 2 weeks before the exam week, and only 1 week of study break! which is definitely NOT enough for 4 exams in 4 days starting from the 1st day of the exam week!

my Auditing tutor said today that, yes he thinks the exam timetable is really bad (for the one on the second day which goes from 6.45pm-9.45pm), but in defense of Curtin University, they only have a certain amount of lecture halls which can fit so many of us students and its hard to adjust the time. BULLSHIT! if it's that hard, why can't they just adjust the time to the 2nd week? or the last day of the exam week? why do they have to put it in the first week then squeezing with all other units and for it to be at night, at such ridiculous hours? i am so stressed right now i am so filled with anger. some students even say they just want students to fail so that they can repeat it the next sem and they earn more money. i wouldn't say it's entirely true. but, its true in a sense that, commerce stream has the most students, commerce students are allowed, in the event that they fail, to repeat the same unit the next sem, and if they fail again, they repeat again, while other streams are not allowed to. And also, we all know that most students taking commerce are asians, which means they are international students paying higher fees. more income for curtin university! hooray! Education is not for profit!

damn it. i've wasted 20 mins of my study time to type this but , it makes me feel better. at least i get to express my anger and put them out in words. fine! i shall go back to my studies and continue cramming everything into my head and just hope that i get through this.

btw, i know i've said this before, but this time, i REALLY won't do as well as previous sems. i'd be happy to just pass these hard units. which also means my weighted average marks are most likely going to go down as well. wat to do?

2009-08-14T16:15:00.003+08:00

This semester's uni timetable has been SHIT for me. I'm still working abt the same hours as i've always been, but uni's timetable is just SHIT! It makes me tired ALL THE TIME!

on Tuesday i have a lecture which goes from 6.30pm-8.30pm. And there's only 1 lecture, normally we get to choose between 2, the morning lecture and night lecture.. but this one, there's only 1 bloody NIGHT lecture. imagine i have to work from 10-5, then catch the bus to uni and go for the lecture till 8.30 when it's all cold and dark outside. this is just stupid. why would they assume that all 3rd year students would have cars, and it's a bloody 10 mins walk to the bus stop from the lecture hall.. wat abt all the rape cases and assault cases that have happened from the past? I told my boss, Mike about this and he said, "No way! I can't believe u have to take the bus home at 8.30! If i were you, I won't even go." And every Tuesday, after work, he will remind me to text him when i get home safely (how sweet). And then, there's a morning lecture on Wednesday which starts at 8.30am. Which i've alrdy skipped for 2 weeks bcoz i'm just too tired from Tuesday and bcoz it was cold and raining heavily.

And then, on Friday, i have 3 tutorials and 2 lectures, starting from 9am-6.30pm, again when it's dark outside alrdy (coz it's winter now).. but yea i suppose 6.30 isn't as bad as 8.30, but still, i'm just too tired at the end of the day and then i have to wake up early for work on Saturday. Sunday is the only day where i get to rest, but seems like it isn't really doing much for me. i'm still tired and i feel really crappy and moody throughout the whole week especially when i have the 2 bloody NIGHT LECTURES.

Sigh.. and the units that i'm taking this semester are all hard units.. i'm worried abt my studies, i'm worried abt my future after i graduate, and i'm tired all the time.. a few friends of mine have been telling me to just stop worrying abt the future bcoz there's no way of telling the future for sure, even u have it all planned out.. and also bcoz it makes u stressed and tired which is certainly not wad i want.. but late at night when i'm lying on my bed, after been through one hell of a day, i still can't seem to fall right into sleep.. wat is wrong with me? i wish i could tell my brain to stop thkng, to be positive, to just enjoy life as it is.. but 4 days work and 3 days of uni a week, how am i supposed to enjoy this life?

2009-08-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

From left to right, me myself, Mike a.k.a my boss and Melissa a.k.a mel or 'smelly'(a name my boss came up with for her)..

I've been talking abt work and my super nice boss all the time but guess it's time i actually introduce them with a picture now. Mike, lived in Malaysia, Penang, jalan bunga bakawali (he still knows how to pronouce that now) when he was a kid for a few years. so he claims himself to be "half-asian". likes to add 'lah' at the end of every sentence and wants me to say 'lah' at the end of my every sentence as well. We (me & mel) call him grandpa bcoz he looks like one. and we always like to tease him and say that he is 50 years old when he is only 40. his wife, Angie, who is not in the picture bcoz she only works once a week, that is when me n mel both have uni, is the same age as he is but looks as if she's 30. she's real cool and she always teases mike and make fun of him together with me n mel. i once dobbed on mike when he secretly ate a piece of angie's calamari. oh right that was when we went bowling with mike, angie and their cute little 8 year old daughter Emily (a.k.a Em). of course, being such nice people, they paid for our bowling session and our dinner for the night. Mike suggested that we should go laser shooting the next time and dim sum eating. he wants me n mel to teach him where to eat and how to eat dim sum. like i said, he SO wants to be asian.

Mel, full name Melissa was born in some asian country but grew up in Australia. pretty, cute, same size as me, but is 1 year younger than i am. very nice person and likes to tease Mike and make fun of him together with me.

of course, not forgetting Ben, who's not in the picture becoz he only works once a week in Telechoice. That's bcoz he's actually a manager in Dell. Ben, a long time friend helped me so much with my job finding. been thru my ups and downs together with me and has been and still is a great friend =D

so, i'll cut it short bcoz i have uni from 9-6.30pm tomorrow, we are one happy team and have been the number 1 store in australia for a few months =D (which is the only reason why this picture was taken bcoz we're goin to be featured in the Mobility magazine as store of the month!)

so that's pretty much it. good nite everyone

Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat

2009-07-28T20:48:00.003+08:00

A song i've fallen in love with

*update* sucky imeem only lets you embed 30 secs part of the song, so i decided to use youtube instead.

the post-exams

2009-06-20T20:05:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I've finished my exams, but just never got the time to write something here. Everytime before the exams, i'd thk that once i've finished my exams i'll be free, but no, im still busy and tired all the time. coz i'm using my free time to work! and of course, go walk around with my teddy bear hehe..

Well, how did the exams go, i would say.. mehhhh it went okay, good but not too good nor too bad.. thanks to the shitty exam timetable which i mentioned in my previous post, i was so stressed out and sleep deprived. But i'm glad i made it through.. pheww~

Plans for the holiday: sleep, work, eat, sleep, work, eat, spend time with teddy bear, sleep, work, eat, sleep, work, eat, spend time with teddy bear and the list goes on.. Boring life, ain't it? yeah, life of a typical uni student overseas with no car and no extra money to spend watsoever. it's satdee (auzzie way of saying saturday which my boss likes to say) and i'm at home, bored, tired from work but don't wanna go to sleep yet coz it's too early and BOREDDDD. explains why i'm finally writing something here..

Geez.. human beings are just so ungrateful and they want everything don't they? When I was so busy with work and uni I didn't even have time to breathe and hoped i had more than 24 hours a day.. but now i have a teensy weensy bit more of spare time and i'm complaining that i'm bored. *slap**slap*

hm.. i need a new pair of work shoes. the black flats that i bought from malaysia are torn.. shows how much i have to walk to the bus stop for work everyday until it's torn. don't blame the quality no. but it's so hard to find shoes for my size! i'm a size 4, and the smallest size they have here is size 5. i went to Kmart and went to the kids department hunting for shoes, and finally i found a size 3 for kids which fits perfectly. but they are so kiddish! they've got the flowers, and the cute patterns. Soooo not work material hey. Not forgetting they're expensive (when comparing to the prices of shoes in malaysia). i mean come on, in malaysia for RM50 you can get a pair of very decent and nice looking shoes. but here, AUD50. just kinda makes u not wanna spend that sort of money on something that would have cost RM10 to buy in malaysia. okay i might be exaggerating, with RM10 i thk u can only buy those ah ma shoes. maybe RM20, or 25.

My parents asked me what i wanted for my 21st birthday this year.. i know there are still 3 months till my birthday is here, but still, it's a big one this year.. i want a big present of course! but question is i don't even know what i want.. well, jewellery, my mom got me a bracelet last yr. money? im earning money myself now. mobile phone? i work in a phone shop i get to see and play with new phones that come out every now and then. well, i was thinking of a car, but i know that's probably a bit too much to ask for. heh heh.. aiyo, one can dream, can't she? Well, there was another thing that I was thkng of.. I want to go to Hong Kong at the end of this year. Teddy bear said he could sponsor half of my air tickets to Hong Kong and i could stay at his house, with his parents of course.. it was just something that sort of came up while i was just talking to teddy bear one day. i was watching some hk series and i said to him:" i want to go to hong kong!" and he said that i could and his parents have always wanted to meet me. Honestly, i've always wanted to go to hong kong being practically growing up watching hk tv series, and being there once when i was 12. Well, if only i would be able to save some money by the end of the year. We'll see...

Good! i've written more than i've intended for this time. so tata for now~

Final exam! Eeek!

2009-06-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!

Shouldn't be blogging at this time since i'm in the mid of 'intensive studying' for my finals.

But anyway, thought i'd let u guys know abt my final exam timetable (Crappiest timetable EVER!):

09/06: 9.00am Accounting (External Reporting) 260

3.30pm Principles of Finance 215

11/06: 9.00am Mathematical Economics 201 (CRAPPIEST UNIT & CRAPPIEST UNIT COORDINATOR & LECTURER & TUTOR EVERRRR! AND I DO MEAN EVER!)

12/06: 12.15pm Accounting Systems 204

So, as u can see, i have two exams on the first day. and both units are NOT EASY units okay???

4 units in 4 days, crap!

Sorry mom, no more 3 high distinctions for this sem liaw :(

P.S To Ling Ling: I read ur tag, will do it when i'm free (after the finals) atm just toooooo busy!

I HATE WINTERRRR

2009-05-22T14:56:00.004+08:00

i hate i hate i hate i hate winter!!!

These few days we've been getting loads of rain and winds in Perth. #$&!^@#%@#$* AND I SIMPLY HATE IT!

Just for today, i hate a test at 9am, and had to submit an assignment at 5pm, so i had to go to uni. Being checked the weather forecast the night before, i knew i was up for sumthg nasty. Winds and thunderstorm and RAIN, of course... So, this morning i prepared myself really well, Long-sleeve shirt on the inside, long-sleeve cardigan in the middle and a water-proof jacket on the outside, a scarf, jeans, and boots! Also, not forgetting an umbrella in my bag. Perfect! u would think.. But NOOOOO.....

(I'll leave out the details in the middle)

Took the bus home from uni, and as soon as i got off the bus, heavy rain started to pour down. And i thought, oh great, now i have to use the umbrella. I took my umbrella from my bag, and as soon as i opened it up, a gust of wind came right at me and broke my umbrella! GREAT! no umbrella. but nevermind, my water-proof jacket has a hoodie! so i covered my head with the hoodie but as the wind was so strong i had to hold the hoodie on my head with my hands.. so i started walking.. walk walk walk.. the rain became bigger and bigger and my hands were so cold and it started to hurt.. at this point here my whole jacket was wet, my jeans was all wet as well as my boots and my uni bag. Story doesn't end here, after i crossed the road, a car, very conveniently drove past and caused the water on the side of the road to splash on me. DOUBLE &$@#@#$%&*%$ Already sooooo pissed at this time, and when i got home my hair was wet (yes it got wet even though it was covered under my hoodie, just shows how the hoodie helps when it comes to rain and winds), even my legs covered under my jeans were wet. and when i checked my bag, even my BOOKS were wet! and my handphone was wet! fortunately it was still working and wasn't damaged or something.. but still, can u feel my frustration here? Now i don't have an umbrella and i need to go to work tomorrow and the bus stop is 10 mins away from my house. What if it rains?? what if it rains heavily??!! ARGGHHHH I HATE WINTERRRRRR

*BIG BIG BIG FROWN*

helloooo

2009-04-27T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hehe.. i know i haven't been updating very frequently i feel like my blog is going to die...

Truth is, i have been very very very busy. don't question how busy i am, i just am, ok?

Just a brief update,

(i) i hate my mathematical economics tutor/lecture/unit coordinator. HE SUCKS! and i hate the finance unit that i have this sem. The first quiz was easy, the tutorial questions aren't too bad, but the mid semester test was just shitttttttttt! the questions are just so different from the normal exercises and the practise exam questions that they posted on blackboard. how do they expect us to do well? they just want us to fail ah???

(ii) i love my new job! i love love love my new job. Michael (my boss) is super fun to work with, and i'm doing quite well with my sales (meaning i get quite a lot of commission hoho)

(iii) not a brief update but abt somethg that just happened. just received a phone call from teddy bear, saying that 猪流感 is spreading in europe and australia and wants me to tell him immediately if i'm not feeling well. he is just so cute. thing is, he told me abt this 猪流感 last night when he read abt it on the news. Then, around 6pm when i called him when i got home from work this evening, he told me abt this 猪流感 again about how it's really serious is america and wants me to be careful. Then, suddenly, he called me 2 mins ago (it's 11.13pm now) and tells me to remember to tell him if i'm not feeling well and if so, i must go see a doctor (in the mid of doing his assignment???) Cute or not cute? CUTE RIGHT!

(iv) received a phone call from Susan last night (which is very rare) which really surprised me but made me feel warm at heart coz i know that someone from back home still remembers me =)

(v) have been kinda addicted to playing Pet Society on facebook recently.. er.. which probably would not last for very long.

(vi) kinda did some changes to my room, and i think it's really pretty now!

(vii) oh right, i forgot to post pictures up from my last Easter trip. I had the chance to go up north with teddy bear, his brother Ming and his brother's gf, and another couple (Ming's friends). It was just a short 2 days 1 night trip as I still had to rush back to work. Went to 3 places which i reckon is actually quite good considering the GPS was giving us wrong directions all the time and causing us to drive the wrong way and wasted hours on finding the right route.

1st stop, The Pinnacles

2nd stop, the Wind Farm, which isn't exactly a stop but was just on the way heading to Gingin

Leaning tower of Gingin. doesn't look leaning here, but it is REALLY leaning lor, i went all the way up to the top floor and as it was really windy the whole tower was shaking la. scary.
so that sums up for my trip, too lazy to post too many pictures. and i thk i better go to sleep. ta ta!

I'm BACK!

2009-03-25T18:59:00.002+08:00

Well, I finally got internet connection at home (actually around a week ago but just too lazy to blog then) and thought i'd write a little sumthg so that my poor friends won't miss me too much.. hehe..

many thgs have happened, but i guess there are just too many thgs that i don't really know where to begin and how to begin. but the main one would be me changing jobs. I've quit Telstra, officially as of 28th March (which means this Saturday is my last shift). Well, i've got a new job! at Telechoice (Telstra's competitor)as a sales consultant. Lol. Shhh.. don't tell anyone.

Anyway, Telechoice in Carousel, so feel free to pay me a visit if u go shopping in Caro. =D

Had a full 8 hours shift in Telstra Murray St today and boy i'm tired. My direct manager paid me a visit in store today. He said he just wanted to come visit me and see how things are with me before my last shift on Saturday, how sweet, and saddening at the same time, making me not want to quit this job. He is such a nice person, and a great manager! Even the others in Telstra were saying how I must visit them whenever I'm in the city, and how we must still contact each other through facebook. Awww~ aren't they just sweet?

Oh well, a change isn't always a bad thing. I like to learn new stuff. A change of working environment gives me more experience, and i get to know even more people.

I'm actually in the mid of studying for my "quiz" and "unannounced quiz" tmr. each worth 10%. Yeap i've got 2 quizzes tomorrow, and a Mid semester test worth 20% on Friday. Sigh.. i feel like i've just started uni, and now it's already mid semester?? why does time have to pass so fast?

well, now that i've got work and uni covered, wat else is there left?

Relationship wise, good. No, Great, actually. Teddy bear has been a good bear. No complaints whatsoever (at least for now).

Friendship wise, good. No arguments with anyone, got plenty of good friends. Just shows how adorable i am doesn't it? (Haha, just kidding la, kenot one is it?!)

Oklah.. i better go back studying. Ta ta~

2009-03-07T15:23:00.002+08:00

heh heh.. i'm still alive. no internet connection at my new house. will be back soon (after 20 working days).

Don't miss me =P

2009-02-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

为什么最近一直对人感到失望？

先是这么多年所谓的“好朋友”。。以前读高中的时候，人人都说是我欺负她。。这个罪名，我背了这么多年，但是有谁真正了解我的感受？我曾经在想，是不是我的问题，我要求太多？但是昨天和凯丽聊天，发现原来有这种感受的不只我一个。。对她感到失望，甚至是绝望的也不只我一个。。我想说，大家毕业了，出国念书，独立生活应该成长了不少。。但是，她，还是没变。。2年了。。06年毕业，现在09年。。今年过了生日我们也就是21岁。。不就是个大人了吗？为什么她的行为还是那么的吊儿郎当，处理事情还是处理的一塌糊涂？这么多年从初二开始到现在。。8年以来，我们总是为了同样的事情一而再，再而三的吵。。有的时候吵到真的很想不管，但是次次都心软。。真的很好笑，我们难得一年回来一次，回来也只有一个月时间，也要吵架。。不对。。这次没有吵。。没有恶言相向，反而是，真的不想管了。。不是有一句话是说，因为在乎才会吵架吗？但是这次我好像真的不在乎了。。过多一个礼拜，我们将又各奔东西。。回到自己在国外已建立和习惯的生活。。说到国外生活，每次过生日，或有什么节日，总觉得感觉不一样。。虽然国外有新的朋友，新的生活圈子，但是，心里还是有一种莫名的感伤。。心里总想念过去可以和家人和朋友在一起的日子。。而在那个时候，收到她寄过来的卡，我总觉得很安慰。。但是为什么大家回到来，却搞成这样？

接着。。这个。。好像每次都也是为了同一个事情。。唉~我不想说这么多了。。

2009-02-07T18:45:00.003+08:00

Compromise

An act of which i see a lot in the both of us, and especially, in you.

Thank you, baby. With me, you have always been patient and 'tolerant', if i have to say so myself.

Home

2009-01-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

Heh Heh.

I'm home.

Ne Yo - Mad

2009-01-05T10:40:00.003+08:00

If my boyfriend would sing this to me each time we fight, there won't be any fights no more =)

Ne Yo - Mad

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

Christmas!

2008-12-28T00:21:00.008+08:00

It's been a few days since Christmas, but I wanted to post these pictures up after the Chrissie party at Alex's place. So here they are. Needless to say much here, pictures will tell =)

Dinner at 六福 on Christmas Day. Just the 4 of us, a bit sad though. lol.

Amy, Jesslyn & Jac

And me of course.

And another one of myself.

27th Dec

Alex is happy. lol.

Rhys, Esther, Me, Lex and Pete

The lovely couple

Lol. Esther cracks the hell out of me. Wiiiiiiiii~Pete is the at the 10th place, which is at the down right corner. Boooo!!

Everyone's concentrating with the Mario Kart.
Esther, Rhys, Toby and Tim

This is Damo, posing with the 'asian pose' (somehow the victory sign or yay sign is referred to as an asian pose. Don't ask me why. Beats me)

Playing the "Celebrity Heads game" Damo was Soulja Boi while Pete was Eminem.

I got Pikachu. I'm like wtf?? how was I supposed to guess that??

At this point, i couldn't get my camera to focus, even with flash on.

Anyway, Lex, Pete, Toby and Tim
Pretending to be in deep thought. Guys.
What a cam whore. He took this by himself
Lol. Cam whore indeed.

Thanks Alex's mom for the delicious food!

The guys said he looked like a leprechaun. lol. (in case you're wondering, that's because leprechauns have green hats.)

Haha. Yes, and that is one GREEN HAT
-end-

一升的眼泪

2008-12-23T21:19:00.003+08:00

Soooo...

I've just finished watching 一公升的眼泪。ok, i know it is a very old series liaw, but i just got the series off a friend recently okay?? Soooo.. it's a sad sad and truly inspiring movie. cried so many times i lost count. The fact that it was based on a true story and that what was written in the diary was real, how can anyone not be touched? Well, i guess this is just life, and stories like these don't only happen in movies, they are for real. Lesson learnt: Appreciate each and every day of your life as it is, because, there are many others who struggle to live for even just one more day on this earth.

Anyway, tomorrow's Christmas Eve, and yet i'll be working. Damn sien one. But fortunately i don't have to work on Christmas Day and Boxing Day. hehe.. I'll be goin to church in the morning (yes mom, see i told u i got go church one) and goin for Christmas dinner with my fellow friends at night. And then, Christmas party on the 27th at Alex's place! can't wait hey! speaking of which, thank you so so so so so much Alex! you really shouldn't have. Seriously, you really shouldn't have. I appreciate all those times that you've helped me out, all those times when u gave me a lift home so that i could avoid taking the 1.5 hours bus trips to get home, and all those times when you lent me a listening ear. You have been a great friend, and that's more than enough. Well, i hope you'll like the Christmas pressie i bought you! ;)

Washing machine broke down again. Stupid machine. *imaginarily kicks the washing machine* Last time it broke down, we sent it away for 3 damn weeks. This time, how long is it gonna take? Another 3 weeks? stupid machine laaaaa, it's so troublesome to get my clothes washed. Hello?? i don't have a car, and there are no launderettes near my house. *imaginarily kicks the washing machine again*

sigh.. time to go to bed. good nite and sleep tight everyone. i wish i had my teddy bear to hug =(

Relationships

2008-12-20T07:04:00.004+08:00

In a relationship, there is no right or wrong, just what's important.

- sumthg i read from PinkPau's blog. Nth much actually, just thought i'd write this down here as a reminder. Too often, I find myself holding too tight onto all those so called principles and wanting to prove that i'm right. This is one thing that i need to change.

2008-12-15T12:26:00.005+08:00

Much has happened recently. I questioned myself if I should write this down here. Then again, this is my blog, a place where I get to pen my feelings down, a place where i get to set myself free and clear my mind off. Why should i let what other people might think or say affect what I might write. So here it goes.

I have been having a hard time. My mood fluctuated a lot. There were even times where i lost my rationality completely and broke down in tears for trivial matters not worth crying for. There were too many differences which left me in doubt. I did not know where this is leading me, where this is going. I did not know if things would work out. My confidence wavered. And many times i just wanted to give up and escape.

Yes, I am truly disappointed. For I have once promised myself that i would not have made the same mistake that I had before. One so many times, i reminded myself of how I should refrain from putting in so much effort, and not to let myself fall into this current state that could have so easily been foreseen. But look at where I am, right now.

It is not your fault. Perhaps, it is nobody's fault. Every human being is created in a different and unique way. But this does not signify that it is impossible for two to be in harmony. Arguments and conflicts are bound to arise, but it all depends on how we deal with it, how we can forgive each other's mistakes and endeavour to make things work. But I can't do this without your help. I need you to play your part. I need you to be there for me. All in all, I need, you. At times of uncertainty and inadequacy, what i really need, is for you to be there for me. And you should know that, I will always be there for you.

I will not deprive any of us of this chance to try to make things better, but I sincerely hope that you do not take it for granted. For chances aren't always there.

I really do appreciate what you have done for me. Thank you.

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I am currently reading..

2008-12-13T23:03:00.002+08:00

exam results

2008-12-10T16:48:00.002+08:00

yes, results are out.

First of all, i'm not saying that i'm not satisfied with my results. I am, but remember the Law (Corporation) 224 that i mentioned before? that freakin hard unit? well, i passed, but i got a 59!! which is like only 1 mark to a credit. super sien lor!! so anyway, here are my results:

Accounting (Financial) 250: 80
Communication in Business 201: 80
Finance (Quantitative Techniques) 203: 91 (yeapieee!)
Law Corporation 224: 59

3 High Distinctions and a shitty Pass. I suppose i should be grateful for the two 80s, and let them make up for the 59. oh well, im happy =)

I'm also happy becoz i just got back from work, a tiring 8 hour shift and my feet hurts, BUT, tomorrow's my off day! yay! i can sleep in and rest.. but on friday and saturday i have to work again. =/

Well, yeah.. the weather's been CRAZY! and i really do mean crazy. It's mid december, and it's supposed to be summer, but it's been raining the whole day today! the temperature was 15 degrees which is like what we have during winter/spring. and there were a few hours of sunshine during noon time but that was it, raining for the whole day.

Another weird thg was, as u know Murray St telstra store is right in front of the train station, there was this guy who was changing his pants right in front of the train station this afternoon. I saw everything (from far, so not very clear). but what makes it weird is, he was wearing a business coat. if i didn't happen to witness that incident, i would have assumed he was a normal person who has a pretty good job.

Okay, that's all for now, i'm tired and i need sum rest.

Toodles~

Monday Blue

2008-12-08T15:26:00.002+08:00

I'm sure u've heard of Sunday Blues, but not Monday Blues. The reason is, for me, Monday is my day-off and I start working from Tuesday-Saturday.

Therefore, I am very blue now.

I've only started having Monday Blues since the holidays bcoz im working a lot and my feet hurts all the time and we get grumpy and rude customers a lot.

Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle all the way

2008-12-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

Christmas is coming! ah~ this is the season filled with joy and warmth.

Yes, I am suddenly all filled with this Christmas spirit. These few days, we've had young men singing carols in Carousel, and today we had a few young girls dressed in red Christmas dresses with cute little Santa hats dancing while singing Christmas songs right in front of Target. with all the Christmas decorations up already I am indeed filled with the jolly Christmas spirit. Afterall, this is the season to be jolly..

However, these few days, we've got quite a few angry customers. Firstly, bcoz the system was down and we couldn't do anythg that required using the computer system, which basically means everything except for just selling prepaid phones or selling accessories. Secondly, well, there's no second reason, Telstra stores are always filled with angry people with problems with the bills, their account, bla bla bla, and they come in demanding a solution from us when it's not even out fault. We're retail stores, we sell things, we don't, and we CAN'T deal with all those stupid problems with your landline or bigpond! they just never seem to understand this fact. Okay enough Telstra talk, i guess none of u actually understand what im talking abt anyway. lol.

The weather has been.. not very summer. i can still clearly remember last year during this time, the temperature could easily go up to 35 or 37, while these few days it's been like 24, 25, just like winter/spring. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS EARTH? im not saying that i like the crazy summer heat, but also hate the cold. it's just ridiculous that during summer, i still have to bring an umbrella wherever i go, and wear a jacket when i'm outside, during the day! sum say it's getting hotter and hotter each year, and that when summer really comes, it's gonna be really hot. SHIT! i hope that the real summer heat doesn't come until january, coz by then i'll be back in kch, hehe..

oh well, my life now is just work, work, and work everyday so there's nth much to say here. i know it's still early to say this, and i would probably say it again when the real day comes, but

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

hehe.. i just feel like saying lah... =P

busy like shit

2008-11-28T15:16:00.007+08:00

i did not realize it has been this long since i last updated my blog. the reason is simple.

I'VE BEEN SOOOO BUSY!

officially finished my last paper on the 19th, and as teddy bear was goin bck to HK, i spent the rest of the days with him, goin to Fremantle, just chilling at each others' house or taking walks by the river.

at Fremantle beach

teddy bear is happy with his fish n chips.
at uncle billy's after a night out at Metros
and also, i've started knitting. yes, u didn't get it wrong, and there weren't any typo, i've indeed started KNITTING. don't believe it? here's the proof. i learnt evythg by myself on the internet from casting on, starting the garter stitch and casting off. YouTube sure did help a lot. see? there's nth u can't get from the internet nowadays.

pretty impressive, i would say.

mind you, i learnt evythg all by myself from the internet without anyone's help lor.

Sooooo.. anyway, teddy bear's been back to HK for almost a week now, and i've still been busy. really busy. with work. oh my feet are soooo sore and i'm exhausted! i'll be working 5 days in a row from tuesday to saturday this week and i feel like im abt to go crazy. coz since Christmas is just around the corner, it's been just crazy in the stores! i'm now working in Carousel and also Murray St which is in the city of course. got to know new people again yay!

anyway, that's it for today. im so tired from all the talking to customers and bullshitting i really don't want to talk anymore.

toodles~

a night out with teddy bear =)

2008-11-16T23:52:00.019+08:00

im sure u guys have been wondering why i call him teddy bear. so here's how the story goes.

few days ago, i was chatting with my cousin, Ah-Lung on MSN and he wanted me to send him a picture of him. and this is what he said: (i know its abit hard to read but i dunno how to make blogger make the picture bigger, so just right click, and open in a new tab/window, please and thank you!)

damn funny right? he got me bursting into laughter. so since then i started to call him teddy bear, bcoz the more i looked at him, the more i realized how he really looked like a teddy bear.

seeee?? so cute right???!!! ~squeeze squeeze~

muahahhahaa. he's gonna kill me.

haha. anyway, back to the point. went for friday night shopping.. or mayb i should say friday night "window shopping".. see, all the christmas decorations are up alrdy.

same ol' christmas tree

(i thk i've posted a picture of me with that same tree last Christmas. sigh.. time passes so fast)

got Angel somemore..

pretty~
Murray St
makes me wanna sing "Rudolph the red nose reindeer dadadadadada"
ah so blur. but if use flash the colour not nice. sienz.
cute decorations in.. guess where?

Utopia (the one in the city, not northbridge)
and lastly, my teddy bear!

*squeeze squeeze*

hahahhahaha!

-end-

*UPDATE - this was his response after knowing abt this post. LOL!

Kevin Cheng is so HAWT!

2008-11-13T13:41:00.004+08:00

Wheeeee~ i've finally finished 3 of my exams in a row. DAMN! it feels so good!
There's only 1 more exam left next week and i've alrdy passed that unit with a whooping internal mark of 55/60. HAHA! and it's all just calculus, which is what we've done back in high sch, and of course much easier than wat we had back then in chmsno1.

so i'm basically in my holiday mood alrdy. happy but unhappy at the same time. happy because this marks the end of this semester, unhappy bcoz im so bored!!! and im only gonna commence working in december. and of course, no work = no income. and also bcoz my teddy bear will be goin bck soon =(

sigh.. what am i to do during the last week of nov with no work and basically nth to do?? watch movies and sleep and eat evyday? speaking abt movies, i've been watching a lot of series,both hong kong series and english ones. n my fav is Gossip Girl! and... shit i dunno how to type chinese with this laptop (im using teddy bear's laptop now and he's not at home so i can't ask him how to type). ok nvm it's "Zui Mei Li De Di Qi Tian" with Kevin Cheng (Zheng Ka Wing) Ahhhhh!!! He's so handsome la!!! wait.. let me see if i can find a super duper lengchai pic of him onot.

*few seconds later*

there u go.. so handsome rite?? but teddy bear says he's not handsome. cheh! must be jealous one. i still thk he's handsome. but i've finished watching that series. gonna move on to The Gem of Life "Zhu Guang Bao Qi" soon. and also i've downloaded all the episodes of the newest season of Prison Break but haven't started watching. and yes, of course, Heroes! guess this holiday is gonna be a series marathon for me.. AGAIN.

ran out of thgs to write again. my life is boring. sien. ok, im gonna go cook sumthg to eat now. and continue with my series marathon. tata!

OMG I MISS HIGH SCH TIME!!!

2008-11-07T19:50:00.003+08:00

stupid gl just gave me the link to this video. and after watching it, i must say im really impressed! never thought they'd be able to produce sumthg like this. well done! (but i thk the 后记 a bit hard to read). nevertheless, GREAT EFFORT!

ahhh! i miss 一中！！ i miss all those teachers and all those memories we had back there! how i wish we could turn back time and relive those precious moments..

一中加油！

Exams & holiday!!

2008-11-05T13:27:00.003+08:00

I have no idea at all why I'm here at this time.

Exams are in less than a weeks' time and frankly, i haven't done a lot of revision. Somehow i just keep spacing out whenever i force myself to read the text or do the past year papers. So mayb the only way to get myself to concentrate is by writing something here.

So here i am, to write something, with no idea at all of what to write. so i'll just continue writing anythg that comes into my mind. Hm.. current song on iTunes - Jessica Mauboy ft Flo Rida - Running Back. nice song. gets me in the mood. yea esther we should go party after the exams yeah?

Christmas is coming soon. this Christmas would be the first Christmas i'd be spending here in Perth.... ALONE. how sad. prolly be working on Christmas day as i can get high high pay. =D

in less than 3 weeks u'll be goin bck to Hong Kong =( and when u're back, i'll be goin bck to Malaysia. hate it whn i thk abt this. oh well, look the the bright side! i'll be goin bck in January! January 12 to be exact. Aren't you guys anxious to see me??!! of course u r! OH MY! all those yummy Kuching food and hanging out with u guys! CAN'T WAIT! CAN'T WAIT! and and... my little bao bei! muacks muacks muacks! i'm gonna kiss u in front of all ur friends! muahahahha. and of course my dearest parents.. i miss u guys! and delicious homecook food! ahh... homesick all of a sudden.

evytime whn im talking to esther on the phone and whenever she says the word "dulan" or "siaw" i feel a lil' bit closer to home. yeah i miss it where u can always hear ppl speak in hokkien in coffee shops. and not forgetting foochow as well. last few days i was talking to Richard in msn, and i somehow managed to use to word "siaw". and he said " finally, a sarawakian word." lol! guess i've been used to talking in auzzie english i've forgotten my 'roots'. with all those 'lah', 'loh', 'leh'. thkng abt home makes me smile, which i am, at this moment, from my heart. =)

thank u for ur card Susan. i must say i was really surprised. it was neither my birthday nor any special occassion so i wasn't expecting it. but it definitely made me feel so warm at heart. and yes, i will go to ur house whn im bck and u will cook hot dog for me. 2 hot dogs with different colours. lol.

memories. is that all that we have left?

Cheer up wooble!

2008-11-03T17:04:00.003+08:00

I know you two are going through a rough patch rite now. This is for u, Esther.

"She loves him more than he'll ever know. He loves her more then he'll ever show."

Mayb it's just a fact that women and men can never really show how much they truly love one another. It just never seems to be enough. But the truth is, he does care for you, just not in the way you want him to. When things are hard, just slow down, take a deep breath and just learn how to forgive and forget. Isn't that what love is all about? I hope this cheers u up =)

It's funny how we can always be so good at giving advice to people when they are having problems in their relationships. But when problems arise in our own relationships, we tend to lose our rationality and cool and do stupid stuff and say stupid things that we will eventually regret. Bcoz human beings are just human beings.

If I were a boy

2008-10-25T19:27:00.005+08:00

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Thought of the day

2008-10-22T18:17:00.006+08:00

As usual, i was on the bus, goin bck home from work.
sometime in the middle of the journey, i noticed a middle-aged man sitting in front at the priority seats, with his hands held up and fingers set at the ringer bell. i thought that he was gonna press the bell soon, but he didn't, for a very long time. and he just kept his fingers there.

This just caught my attention and i was wondering, why, when this man was not elderly, was sitting at the priority seats, and had his hands at the bell but did not press it for such a long time. he could have just waited till the bus was near the stop and then press it. why waste energy by holding his hands up for such a long time, right?

And then, finally he pressed the bell.. and when he got up and left the bus, i discovered the reason to his strange attitude.

he was blind.

i was so disheartened to see him get off the bus by himself without having anyone to help him. he slowly stumbled off the steps, with his hands reaching out trying to find something to hold onto, smiled at the bus driver and finally when he got to the ground, turned back and said thank you to him. i felt so... so... i don't know.. i juz wish i could have done sumthg to help him.

then it got me thinking, how did he know when to press the bell? how did he know when the bus would have reached the stop that he wanted to get off at? so i guessed that mayb, from the time he had his fingers set at the ringer bell, he was counting, in seconds, and when a number of seconds has passed by, he pressed the bell.

i can't help but thk, how strong this man is, so determined and resolute.
despite being blind, he could have travelled around all by himself without anyone's help, taking a public transport, and still being so polite and appreciative towards the people around him. i imagined putting myself in his shoes, and questioned if i would be able to do so.

and i thought, maybe not.

despite having a healthy body with no disabilities, i keep complaining that i have to take the bus to and fro from work, i keep complaining that i have to walk 15 mins to the bus stop to go to uni. i keep complaining that my feet hurts from standing 8 hours during work. i keep complaining about all those petty little things that would seem so insignificant compared to what he has to go through every single day. even something like taking the bus home would require so much preparation, thinking and courage.

i feel..

i don't know what i feel..

i know that after today... or maybe 2 days, i will go back to the ol' self where i start complaining about "all those petty little things that would seem so insignificant compared to what he has to go through every single day", yes, becoz we human beings are never satisfied. we want the best for ourselves. so i juz thought i'd write it down and share this little thought.

quote of the day: " The happiest person do not have the best of everything in life. They just make the best out of everything "

random

2008-10-17T00:08:00.003+08:00

In the mid of studying the dreadful Law Corporation.

Felt that i seriously needed a break so here i am.

Got 2 assignments due before 10am on Monday, and this stupid Law Corp test on Tuesday. arrghhh STRESS!

Got work on Saturday 9am-5pm. sometimes i wish i didn't have to work. would have made life much more easier for me.

Okay, about work. i hate my job.
yes i know that not long ago i just mentioned that i love my job.. haha. yes i do love my manager and the people that i work with, they're all so nice and our relationship has been getting better and better, and not forgetting the recent pay rise, but still, i hate my job. i hate that i have to sell things, i hate that i have sales targets to achieve each shift. i hate that i have to stand for 8 hours even when there are no customers. i hate that i have to take 1 hour to get to Carousel by bus, and another 1 hour to get home. so basically, for a 9am-5pm shift, i have to get on the bus by 8am, and reach home by 6pm. i hate that i have no free days at all in a week where i can just sit back and relax. pardon me for being so hateful, just needed to get it all out. STRESS bah!

there hasn't been much going on lately, it's just been work and uni and loads of assignments. i hate assignments. i hate that they're all packed within this month. i hate that i got all the strict tutors while my friends got the more lenient ones where they don't scold you for not doing the weekly homework or give you low marks for unimportant mistakes. i'm being all hateful again and im aware that i should stop.

ok gonna go back to facing the stupid law corp textbook and hopefully i'll manage to finish one chapter before i go to sleep tonight.

p.s. i've stopped working in the Telstra shop in the city =( but i miss all of the consultants in Hay St Telstra. maybe after the finals, i'll try to arrange for some shifts in hay st.

Perth Royal Show

2008-10-09T23:07:00.004+08:00

i am so sorry everyone for the lack of new posts lately.

i've been so busy, and so sick, and just sorta recovered (slightly) today. got a few days off from work and now im back to work again. it was the week break last week and now im back to uni again.

sigh.. few more weeks and it's the finals. dammit.

seems like i can never get enough time!

Anyway, back to last week, went to the Perth Royal Show. It was pretty much the same as the previous year, or should i say, exactly the same? lol. Only this year i went on the Ghost Motel and the Ferris Wheel while last year i went on all the other crazy rides which costs me heaps and caused me headache and neck pain (sounds weird but im serious).

Piggie and the pigs. hehehe

as usual, game stalls and lots of plush toys

view from the ferris wheelFireworks
this one looks like electricitythis one looks like fairy sprinkles. so pretty lor
-end of Perth Royal Show-

ahhh.. i miss all the sweet food, i miss eating chocolate, cakes, sweets, and fried food, mcdonalds, kfc.. blaabbb, my tongue is so bitter from eating medicine, porridge and all those supposedly good-for-ur-health food.

blahhhh i dunno wat im talking abt now. brain not functioning properly atm. better stop. c ya soon!

唔該晒

2008-10-06T11:26:00.003+08:00

呢幾日，我病佐個時候，真係多得你係道o甘照顧我。。多謝你呀。。=)

其實，我已經好耐冇o甘感動。。真係唔該晒你呀，白痴彬

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

2008-09-24T22:19:00.007+08:00

okay i know this post is a bit late. i've been too busy la! assignments due, exams, and work, almost crazy alrdy u noe?

okay wat u've all been waiting for! pictures time!

Friday night (19/09/08) @ Soon Tak Restaurant, northbridge. A surprise birthday dinner by my housemates hehehehe.. thanks Jac, Jou, KC and Ah Fan! - cheese cake yum yum~

Saturday night (20/09/08) Second birthday dinner @ 大排檔, northbridgeLeft -Right: Millie, Birdie, Isaac, me, Moh Feng, Ming Khai and Wei Tat
after that, party at Metros! wheee~~
jac, jesslyn and mejou acting cute.estherrrrr! i know i look fat here. shut up.the cute coupleborrow ur bf for a whilebirdie, jac, joubirdie, jou, jac, jesslynme and isaacme and birdie~show u beautiful legs
i didn't take this photo ok??! me and the owner of that pair of beautiful legs

lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me. Goodbye teenage~

p/s. i had 3 bithday cakes this year! 2 of which i've alrdy shown in the pictures above, another one baked by esther herself! awwww thanks so much esther!!! mwah mwah mwah!

p/s/s. thanks susan, ling ling for calling me all the way from taiwan and malaysia. thanks to mom and dad for the beautiful bracelet and warm birthday greeting at 12 midnight. thanks to alex for the 2 La Premiere tickets and box of chocolate. thanks to evyone for the greeting either by sms or msn or friendster or facebook. THANKSSS!!

okay birthday girl gotta go back to reality where assignments and exams and work strangles her. c ya

WOOHOO! I GOT A PAY RISE!

2008-09-19T09:27:00.005+08:00

MUAHAHAHHA THIS JUST MADE MY DAY!

i was woken up by the sound of incoming sms from my phone. i got up and checked, and it was sent by my manager. my manager sends us sms all the time to talk about stuff. how cool is that? haha! so this was how it went (blue is my manager, and pink is me):

"Hey guys, I have great news for you. I have been working my ass off for weeks to try to get some better incentives for you all. And it just paid off!"

"Lol! Really? That's great! Thanks so much Jason! But how does it work?"

"Your pay rate has increased. Mon-Fri:XX.XX/hr. Sat-Sun:XX/hr but it means that your reports have to be on time & you need to do your quizes etc." - WHICH IS GREAT COZ I NORMALLY GET PAID THE NORMAL RATES FOR SATURDAY SHIFTS. AND I GOT A PAY RISE OF $X.XX/HR DURING WEEKDAYS! WHEEEEE~

"Haha! My reports have always been on time and i have also completed all the quizes! That's really great Jason! Thanks so much!"

"Yes they have :-) Hence the reward. You've been awesome! a great addition to the team. Keep up the great work Caren." - SUPER HAPPY LOR WHEN I READ THIS!

"Once again, thank you! Hope you'll have a great weekend ahead! :-)"

so that's it. i have to go to uni soon. work again tonite. but no worries! new pay rate, new 心情！never thought i'd say this, but i love my job and my manager!

toodles all~

我不要。。

2008-09-14T16:52:00.004+08:00

突然很害怕。。

害怕未来一切的不肯定。。不知道为什么顿时之间，起了这样的恐惧。。

我不要这样的不肯定。。我不要现在这种飘浮不定的感觉。。

我不要改变。。已经习惯了，我就要继续习惯下去。。

我不要。。也不会。。为了任何事，而改变我的习惯。。

我不要。。。

Reminiscence

2008-09-10T21:01:00.006+08:00

wat am i doing here?? i should be studying for finance tomorrow!!

don't know.. just feel like blogging..

this morning i bumped into Erna *waves and says hi to Erna* before going to work. In case u don't know who Erna is, she's my primary sch classmate, and a very very pretty young lady now. =) The world is a small place, isn't it? And i got to know from her, that one of my best friends during primary school, Ursula(who is also a very very pretty young lady now), is getting married next year!!!

OH MY GAWD!!!

I don't even have a boyfriend yet, and she's actually getting married!!!

Sigh~ is this a sign that i'm getting old, with friends around me actually getting married? Anyway, i hope for the very best and wish that u'll be blessed abundantly, Ursula =D

that was a good start to my day, but then there was this really rude and crazy customer.. i didn't even do or say anythg to offend her, but apparently, she somehow got so offended by what i said and sprung up to me and shouted in my face. all i said was "hold on" in a very polite way hey. im like, wat the hell? but well, u get used to it. there are just certain people who have really bad temper out there.

This month is gonna be a crazy month for me, man. all the assignments and tests are due in this month. Sigh.. that explains why i don't blog that often anymore. Oh well, it's also good in a way, that i don't have so much spare time on hand.

Ben's birthday on Friday! Happy Birthday Ben!

Oh yea.. speaking abt birthdays, Susan, i got the birthday card from u alrdy.. Thanks so much my best friend! MWAH MWAH MWAH! Love you lots! But why won't u let me know your address in Taiwan so that i can send a birthday card to u too??　=(
Kinda miss the ol' days where we would celebrate each other's birthday together.. Back then evythg seemed so simple..

Okay, enough of the reminiscence.. let's come back to reality. Finance exam tmr. Eeekk!

Gotta go~ Ciao~

=(

2008-09-04T23:05:00.006+08:00

I NEED TO BREATHE!!!

i am so tired i wish i could just go to sleep straight away without having to worry about the stupid accounting assignment and skip class AND work altogether on both tomorrow AND saturday!! juz kidding la, of course.. im a good student, i don't skip classes one mommy..

i did a double shift today, coz Martin ( the other demonstrator in Carousel ) had a mid semester test and asked if i could cover his shift. so i tot, more money, why not?? so, this was my day:

8am-10am: finance lecture
10am-11am:wait for bus and take bus down to caro from uni
11am-3pm: first shift
3pm-4pm: linner (lunch+dinner, a word i came up with out of the blue)
4pm-8pm: second shift
8pm-9pm: grocery shopping
9.30pm-now: doing the stupid accounting assignment

just thkng abt my schedule tomorrow makes me wanna cry..

11am-1pm: acc tutorial
1pm-2pm: finance tutorial
2pm-3pm:wait for bus and take bus down to city (takes 30mins to get to city from uni)
3pm-4pm: linner, again
4pm-8pm: friday nite shift in city
8pm-9.15pm: take train from city to bullcreek train st, and take bus from train st to get home

BAM! another day gone.

and then i'm working on Saturday again..

This week has been a crazy week for me man. have been so busy since Monday, remember the Thornlie task i've got, and as usual whole day in Uni on Tuesday ( i have 3 lectures and 1 tutorial on Tuesday, crazy huh? yea i thk so too.. ).. and Wednesday work as well..

don't even get me started on next week.. Assignment due on Monday 10am, Perdisco assignment to start, Law Corporation test, Finance test soon to come, and Comm in Business assignment soon to due.. what else did i miss??

Arggghhh.... SOMEONE SAVE ME PLEASEEE, I BEG U!

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this shows how frustrated i am...

=(

*update- i forgot to mention, we had a new store manager come in today in Caro - Jason. He's sooo cool hey! i like! He had so many things to say to me, extremely friendly, extremely wise in terms of techniques of getting sales, he calls it being 'creative'.. he made the whole working environment more relaxed and lively. totally stress-free! not bad ey ;)

马来西亚，生日快乐！

2008-08-31T21:54:00.004+08:00

想想，已经有好一段时间没有用华文写部落各了。。
不行啊，偶尔要练习练习，要不然华文会退步的。。

好的，首先，祝马来西亚生日快乐！
虽然，我自认不是一个很爱国的人，但是，那里毕竟是自己的家。。是我成长的地方。。有我最爱的家人和朋友，有许许多多美好的回忆，还有我最爱吃的马来西亚名食！（laksa, kolok mee, kampua, cha kueh, kueh chap, ang dao beng, metahorn, i miss u guys!!!!）

唉~好了好了。。不要再挑起自己的食欲了。。弄得我快连口水都流出来了。。嘻嘻。。

明天又要开始上课了。这个礼拜的week break根本就不像是week break。。要赶assignment,要读书，还要做工，累得半死。。明天，我接了一项工作，要去thornlie的caltex做一个customer survey。工钱还蛮不错的。。不过，就有一点远。。不要紧啦。。有钱赚，就不要嫌那么多。。

不知不觉，来这里也一年多了。。时间还过得真快。。
从以前的人生，地不熟，到现在可以不用靠人，自己一个搭train和巴士到大老远的atwell去interview。。
从以前的什么都不会，都要问人，又害怕又迷惘，到现在的什么都可以自己来，有时还教别人怎么做。。
从以前的害怕和洋人说话，到现在的可以跟他们打成一片，和洋人customer更可以毫无顾虑的上前和他们开始对话和讲笑。。哈哈。。告诉你们啊，我的同事还以为我是这里出生和长大的啊。。当我告诉他们我来这里才一年多，他们还睁大眼睛多么惊讶。。就连我的tutor也以为我是这里的人耶。。

不过，有些事倒是没怎么变。。
我还是会想家，我还是会想念我的宝贝。。我还是会想念妈妈煮的菜。。
我还是不怎么会做饭。。哈哈。。最擅长的是煮泡麵。。
我还是单身一个人。。
我还是一样的喜欢粉红色。。嘻嘻。。

明天，就是九月了。。
生日也快到了。。但是一点都不开心。。
因为以往每年生日都可以吃到妈妈买我最喜欢吃的巧克力蛋糕。。可以和一家人一起出去吃大餐。。可以有家人为我唱生日歌。。
今年的生日不知道会是怎么样过的。。不过，洁莹你说的对，当我们到了这样的年龄，生日其实没什么大不了，不要把这个日子看的太重，还只不过是一年当中的其中一天。。是时候应该要习惯了。。
不过，很谢谢妈妈，已经托了朋友把我的生日礼物送来。。不过就只可以在我生日的时候才拿给我。。谢谢你，妈，我爱你们。。=）

说着说着，突然就流了眼泪。。是开心的眼泪，是想念的眼泪。。突然很想你们。。很想回家。。
快把眼泪擦干。。傻瓜，哭什么。。

今天就写到这里了。。要早点睡，明天还要一大早起身。。晚安啦，各位！

Yiruma - River Flows In You

2008-08-27T09:51:00.002+08:00

In case you haven't noticed, I changed the song under SONGS I'M LISTENING TO.

Well, i don't know if you guys like piano music, but this song is absolutely beautiful! touches my heart each time i listen to it. Definitely worth listening to.

Enjoy =)

busy busy busy

2008-08-26T12:08:00.004+08:00

Hi guys,

sorry for the late update. I've been busy. studying and working, as usual. life of a typical Uni student.

somehow time just seems to pass so much faster when Uni starts. same goes for last semester. i now have weekly assignments to hand in every week, hence forcing me to study every week.

am actually heading out to the launderette to wash my clothes soon. remember? my washing machine broke down. took them 3 weeks to come over to PICK THE MACHINE UP, and now we'll have to wait another 3 weeks for them to FIX IT AND SEND IT BACK. how "efficient".. *sniggers*

Went to karaoke with Stella and her sister, Hannah ( from Korea ) and also Charmaine. lol. I've known Charmaine for 1 year plus, we go to all lectures and certain tutorials together but this is only the FIRST time we actually hung out together on a Saturday nite. How come, u may ask? because Charmaine always stay at home la! too guai alrdy. Charmaine! don't keep staying at home la, come out more often see perth more mah..

anyway, pictures..

NOT YET!

haha gotcha!

still in my camera la. lazy transfer them to my computer, anyway only a few of them. see whn my mood good lah.

oops. gotta run! c ya!

p.s. 溏心风暴之家好月圆so nice!!赞！

p.p.s. birdie is a 小气鬼!

I AM SO TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH OPTIMUS PRIME!

2008-08-17T20:59:00.006+08:00

Haha.. i know Transformers is not a new movie, but can re-watch old movies one mah rite?? plus it's so freaking AWESOME!

OH MY GOSH! IM SO IN LOVE WITH OPTIMUS PRIME! he's so MAN and HANDSOME lah!!! ( charmaine i know u say robots cannot be described as handsome, but i don't care. i thk he is handsome =p)

I was studying for my Law Corporation test and it's just so freakin dull and boring!

".........in the case of a partnership, since it is not an entity separate from the partners, each of the partners is personally liable to outside creditors to the full extent of the partnership debt. Further, each partner is an agent of all the others and in most cases the act of a partner binds the other partners thereby making them all personally liable to the full extent of their assets. Partners cannot limit their liability to creditors of the partnership and are only entitled to a return from the partnership once all outside creditors are paid in full........."

how boring is this?

anyway, so i decided to rest for a while and watched Transformers. TRANSFORMERS ROCKS!! Megan Fox is super hot lor! and Linkin Park's What I've Done at the ending really brings the mood out. i must say, Transformers is one hell of a good movie! *thumbs up*

Gahhh.. gotta go back to studying... Law Corp sucks! big time!

happy happy happy!!

2008-08-14T20:58:00.006+08:00

happy happy happy!!

just got back from work so tired and i haven't shower yet but im happy happy happy!!

Today, work was GREAT! Lots of people (Carousel Telstra sales consultants) came over to talk to me leh!

Matty was the funniest one. he came over and played the 'pen tricks' with me, and asked me to show him how to do the 'wobble' thing. haha.. Then there were 2 customers from China who were not really good at English and so Matty asked for my help as a translator. it was a really complicated process and then Matty bought me a drink to thank me. How sweet =)

Then Gafron came over to talk to me as well.

And Suzie too! Suzie's not much of a talker i was really surprised when she told me " so, i messaged this guy at 3pm dis aftnoon, and he hasn't replied me. im really pissed off rite now."

Then Wilson also. He's the nicest of all. came over like twice, three times to talk to me.

Then Andrew came in a bit later but still came over and asked me how my day was and so on..

And the others were also strangely polite, they were smiling more, and seemed more approachable.

Weird, but nevermind. i like!

Used to thk working in Carousel Telstra was really dreadful. but not anymore. The people are starting to open up, i guess?? oh! happy happy happy!!

Tmr's Friday, which means i'll be working in Hay St Telstra in the evening! If you have been a loyal reader of my blog (oh silly me, of course you have!), u'd know how much i love working in Hay St Telstra! The people are sooo nice and friendly! So happy happy happy!!

i finished my accounting assignment this morning so tonight i can relax. another reason to be happy happy happy!!

and i just bought my groceries, i bought 4 bottles of 3litre Just Juice. on promotion wat! of course buy la. also bought 4 boxes of Shapes biscuits. also on promotion wat! and i bought milk and Milo cereal. all on promotion! Wahhhh starting to thk im becoming 'ah sam' (which means auntie) alrdy. only buy things which are under promotion. but nevermind. can save money. i like!

Hehe.. i dunno why im oh so happy happy happy tonite. but i am! Despite my feet being sore for standing so long, despite being sleep deprived coz i had an early class this morning at 8am and only slept at 2am last nite becoz i was doing my accounting assignment, despite i got rejected by a few customers, im still happy happy happy!

So now, won't u be happy happy happy together with me?

ciao~

Jac's 21st & Esther's 24th birthday

2008-08-12T21:48:00.009+08:00

Weather was cold today. Compared to yesterday and last Sunday. weird. had a nice afternoon in uni today. had a 1.5 hours wait for the next lecture, so i was just sitting here with charmaine waiting for time to pass.

The feeling was really nice. With the warm sunshine and cool breeze.. ahhh.. wad a nice combination.

Curtin can be really pretty at times. Weird phrase but u get what i mean.

Ahhh.. so tired now. ever since uni started i've been so tired. can never seem to get enough sleep. always have to wake up so early to go class. got two 8am classes leh! if not also 11am or have to work at 10am.

anyway, lets go back to last week.

Saturday - Jac's 21st birthday. went to Jade for steamboat and metros.

birthday girl cutting cake

birthday girl and me

group photo
clockwise- birdie, isaac, me, jac, sui teng, adrian, ah fan, amy and kc

birdie, me, isaac

me and phoebe

me, jac, amy
jesslyn and me
group photo
lastly, myself.

Sunday - Esther's 24th birthday - went to Cottesloe beach and Singapore restaurant for dinner

Cottesloe beach - nice weather

esther and me

rhys, me, alex

my footprint in the sand.

rhys and esther

surfer dude!

double "eye-glassesed" rhys

triple "eye-glassesed" rhys

esther and me

esther and sharon

sunset

goodbye cottesloe

singapore restaurant yumyum

ang moh first time using chopsticks.. lol. not bad i would say.

tired. goin to sleep..

-end-

08/08/08 = happy day!

2008-08-08T21:11:00.006+08:00

Remember how i've always mentioned that i loveeeee the city feel?

Well, tonite i got to work in the city!

No i didn't get a new job, i'm still working for Telstra, but from now on, i will be working in the Hay St Telstra on Friday evenings and Carousel Telstra on other days.

WOW! i gotta tell u! the people in Hay St Telstra are really really really nice! my gosh! all ang mohs also but they are soooo different from the people in Carousel lor. They are sooo friendly and approachable. and the assistant manager Ben and Deanna are sooo nice! unlike the carousel one - M*ra. hmph.

Anyway, there's Sarah, which is a really nice and sweet girl. She was the first one to approach me whn i walked into the store and showed me the way around the store. she also told me that whn there are no customers, i can just hop onto one of the chairs and surf the internet or sumthg. she also said that as tonite was the first day of the Olympics it would be really quiet so i'll just probably be sitting around and talking to them. so nice rite???

Then, there's Olga. when i was standing in the mid floor waiting for customers to come in, she came over right after she finished the work on her hands to talk to me. asked me if i like the work bla bla bla. so nice!

Then comes Anthony. he came over while i was standing in the mid floor as well. haha. he also super friendly lor. *cant stop smiling*

And then Ben, the assistant manager. Well, Ben's pretty quiet but he's super nice! Unlike *cough*m*ra*cough* the other assistant manager in carousel. he doesn't walk around and talk like he's such a big shot. he plays around with all of us and he's really nice la. i feel so happy to talk to him.

Those who i've mentioned above are all ang mohs la. There's one from Maldives - Mohamed. He's very funny and got a great sense of humour. totally unpretentious and is very friendly as well.

See? only first shift and i know all their names, what kind of people they are and talk to them a lot. unlike Carousel. Until now i don't even know all their names. Only a few like Matt, Ben (diff ben, a lot of ppl called ben here), Andrew, Gafron, Wilson, Lynne, Suzie. ( Carousel got more people la, bigger store mah). and i seldom get to talk to them. the only okay ones are like Andrew, Ben, Gafron and Wilson.

Wait! forgot to say sumthg. Remember i mentioned about the FM- Floor Manager who wasn't happy whn i told her customers came in?? Yea now she's really good to me!

She's been smilling to me a lot. and just 2 days ago she came over to me and said this,
" There are some jelly beans in a jar at the kitchen behind. You can just grab some if you'd like to."
Hehehehe.. either she feels bad for being bad to me before, or im too cute that she's starting to like me alrdy. =P

So that's abt it. im just really happy tonite after my first shift in Hay St Telstra. Too bad only got 1 shift per week. Gimme more shifts in Hay St!!!

sigh.. why same same ang moh but attitude totally different one leh??

Btw, today's 08/08/08. Happens once every millenium hey!

SATC rocks my world!

2008-08-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

I've finished watching whole six seasons of Sex And The City and SATC the MOVIE

and I'm Abso-f*ckin-lutely (quote Mr.Big) loving it!

the best thing about SATC is that it's BOLD, it's HONEST, and it tells the stories of women, how we really feel, what we think about love, relationships, and friendship. and we can REALLY relate to the stories. i mean, i could actually relate to quite a lot of the situations and feelings that Carrie or Charlotte or Miranda were goin thru. the reason why i didn't mention Samantha was bcoz, well, obviously i don't at all advocate the kind of lifestyle Samantha had, but i gotta say, i love her character. She's the kind that isn't afraid of saying how she feels, what she thought about certain things and never fails to make me laugh, even during the lowest moment of my night.

AND I ALSO ABSOLUTELY LOVE the friendship shown in the series. 4 totally different women could actually share such a wonderful friendship. Marriages after marriages, divorce, breakups, breakdowns.. Nothing, absolutely nothing could break them up. Sure they have fights, sure there are times when they don't agree with each other and say things that hurt each other, but they can always just put it behind them and reconcile.. it's just so sweet!

Of course, the best thing is, it teaches u a lot of things.

It makes you....KNOW

Know how it is out there, and that you're not the only one goin thru all those emotions and it makes u realize that u're not insane, and u're not being too sensitive with certain things, and that it's absolutely normal to go crazy once in awhile, or cry for silly things.. because we are human beings!

as simple as that.

we have feelings, and sometimes, guys just don't get it. they think we're being childish, they think we're being emotional, they think we're irrational, and not thinking right. but that's not the truth!

the truth is..
we put our hearts into every relationship we have. we would give everything we had just to make the other half happy. And all we want, is for someone to love us the way we love them. all we want, is to see that we meant something to them.

That's not too much, is it? And yet, guys just keep saying that they don't get us, they don't understand us, and we're asking too much? bullshit.

Guys, go watch SEX AND THE CITY and u'll understand women. i guarantee u that.

lastly, my favourite quote.

Kim Cattrall (Samantha Jones):

Being single doesn't mean nobody wanted you. Now it means, you're pretty sexy, and you're taking your time, deciding how you want your life to be, and who you want to spend it with.

Cheers =)

Can we be who we want to be?

2008-08-03T00:42:00.005+08:00

I've had this thought in my mind for quite some time.

Coming to Australia, living in this country of diverse ethnic and culture, working in an environment where all my co-workers and target customers are aussies, i found this need to seriously adapt to this whole new environment. What i'm referring to here is the state of mind, my own asian values and perspectives, and how i would perceive many things differently from how i would have if i were still back in Malaysia.

See, im in some sort of a dilemmatic situation. Sometimes i don't even know what i want, wat kind of person i want to be. I try to conform to the so-called western thinking but sometimes i just can't seem to get myself to accept some of the social norms here which are considered a big no-no from where i came from.

Guess what I'm trying to say is, i just started my new job like, 3 weeks ago? and frankly, i feel isolated. Well, my co-workers aren't mean, they are nice to me, they do talk to me politely, and smile to me, but.... we just have no common topic. i don't know if it's the lack of confidence or i'm just not interested in making friends with them. i do, i do want to be able to be working in a happy working environment where the relationship between me and my co-workers are healthy and lively, but it just seems so hard! how can i make this work? also, most of the customers are aussies. asians just don't want to subscribe to Telstra coz it's too expensive? so each shift, i need to talk to a lot of aussies. and in order to be able to start a friendly and promising conversation, i nid to be able to connect to them.

i don't want to be like a chameleon. i don't want to be a hypocrite. but juggling between the old self and the new self, it's pretty hard. especially when i don't even know what kind of person i myself want to be.

i realize, if i want to be able to succeed here, in australia, get a good job, have a good relationship with my colleagues, not just now, but also in the future if i decide to stay here, i NEED to let go of the old self. not too conservative and much more open. and also, not too scared of voicing out. one thing, according to my lecturer of Communication in Business, Malaysia is actually the country with the highest power distance? i doubt that it's the highest, but i can't deny that it does have a relatively higher power distance compared to Australia. For example, we couldn't call our manager by their first name back in Malaysia, we had to address them by their titles, like Madam Jong, or Miss Tan or watever. but here, i call my manager by his first name. Jason! how amiable! And we also had to be really careful with our words, so that we wouldn't offend anyone. u noe how asians are, whn ppl offend them, they keep it to their hearts and find every chance they have to get back at u. Whereas here, they actually want us to voice out our opinions. like my manager now, he wants us to tell him our problems, and tell him if we are not happy with certain stuff. he encourages us to call him/text him/email him anytime if we weren't treated right. i was actually quite surprised. and i like it. (in case u're wondering, i studied the Hofstede's cultural dimensions last semester so i did quite some research on those 5 dimensions for my assignments, which is why im quite clear with all these cultural stuff).

Anyway, back to the point, there are so many thgs i need to learn, so many thgs i need to change.. and honestly, i don't know where this is leading me. job wise, relationship wise.. got hurt one too many times to be that foolish to fall for it again.

i admit it..

i am,

a coward.

im scared.

this is life?

2008-08-01T18:10:00.006+08:00

how should i say, i'm in a terrible terrible mood rite now...

i now, finally got the taste of dis.

i now, finally know how it feels when u're struggling so hard to make ends meet and the stupid bank has to charge u a service fee of $50 because ur account has no money in it!!! 50 bucks can buy me 5, or more than 5 decent meals u noe??! and i haven't had a decent meal in days!

im poor enough alrdy still want to charge me a freakin 50 bucks just because the direct debit for my phone bill was dishonoured or deferred! where's the sympathy?? couldn't they at least give me a warning first then i go put money inside my account la!

arggghh!

a few more days, and im getting my pay alrdy..

a few more days, and im getting my tax returns alrdy..

SHIT i tot i could just make it thru in time, and i forgot i had to pay my phone bill! stupid phone bill!!!!

sucky sucky sucky feeling arrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. mom, don't worry la i got enough money one, just that i spent it on buying books then i thought since my pay was gonna come in soon i didn't have to worry. sigh..

i guess dis is wad they call, a new experience in life? to make u stronger and wiser?

no pain, no gain? then u wouldn't know how hard it is to earn money, how hard it is to save up with all kinds of bills bombarding u?

yeah i guess this is life.

wonders photoshop can do

2008-07-31T15:08:00.005+08:00

i was just browsing for photoshop tricks and i got to re-learn a trick that i haven't really mastered back then - changing the colour of ur iris. well it really isnt that hard to come to thk of it now.

this is the original colour of my eye. (ignore the fake eyelashes).

now it's blue

then it's green

and purple

and then red

and fnally yellow

hahaha. i noe it looks really fake lah! but i wanted to make it more apparent and noticeable so that u guys can see the drastic changes.
i also learnt how to cover up/smoothen ur poles of ur skin so that it looks so ever nice. wahahha. but really needs lots of attention to detail and time to make it perfect la. but anyway, it's a good skill to possess =)
more for me to discover!

Mika - Happy Ending

2008-07-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

no matter how many times i told myself, "nope, it ain't gonna happen. i am not gonna let this affect me. " it still doesn't seem to work. can't stop wondering why im so weak. keep telling myself, i am more than this, this is not wat im worth, but who am i kidding? im still that vulnerable, fragile self. couldn't even stand the sight of u. just one sight, and im back to where i was before.

can't do this no more.

it was so hard, to pretend in front of evyone, that i was fine. wanted so much to just go sumwhere alone, the more people there were surrounding me, the more i realized how much i missed u.

i can't help but thk, how did all this happen? what was it that changed all this? why did u just suddenly stop calling? why did evythg just change overnight? why? how? i asked u so many times but u never, NEVER gave me an answer. if u had just told me from the very beginning, i would not have let myself get into this mess. do u noe that? do u.. ppl keep telling me, he's a player, he's been playing with u, but i just didn't want to believe that, bcoz i felt that they dont know u, and they are many other reasons as to why all this happened, if only u would tell me, i would at least feel better, even if thgs didn't end up the way i wanted it to.

It's pointless. No comments please for this post.

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2008-07-27T19:07:00.005+08:00

OH MY GAWD!

uni starts tomorrow! and my first class starts at 8am, freaking early lor!
sigh.. gotta sleep early tonite. i don't even know if i can go to sleep so early onot..

Anyway, went to Amy's house to play Wiiiiiiiiiiiiii. haha, it was so fun. especially the boxing and the athletics games. and trust me, it really uses up a lot of energy and makes u so tired. good work out for those who don't want to step out of the house but still want to have sum fun while exercising. Gosh, both my arms are so sore now, it hurts even when i lift it up slightly.

Hm.. i got a new phone. Sony Ericsson W910i. i updated my 3 account, so good news for u sis, my old Nokia N73 will be for u when i get back. No iPhone, but at least got N73 rite?? so, u know wat u gotta do.. KL got MEGA SALE now rite?? buy pretty pretty clothes, shoes, bags and accessories for me! YAY!!

I was watching Sex And The City few nites ago, i thk it was one of the episodes in Season 4, there's a scene where Carrie and Miranda were eatin Oreo's dipped in milk at Miranda's place. and u noe wat? i was eating Oreo's dipped in milk too at that same time! What a coincidence hey!!

Okay this post is a little bit meaningless. Don't mind me, I'm just blabbering. Haven't been active on MSN for the past few days, so i sorta like.. need to talk?

Oh yea, check out this website i got to know thru David. Urban Dictionary

here are a few examples.

Textpectation

The anticipation one feels when waiting for a response to a text message.

I just texted her for a date – but now the textpectation is killing me.

Flirtationship

When you regularly flirt with an acquaintance or friend but do no more.

1. Rick and Julie flirt whenever they are together, but they've never gone out. They aren't in any sort of relationship, merely a flirtationship.

2. Bob has only one girlfriend, but starts a flirtationship with almost every girl he meets.

poopular

Adjective. Popular on the outside, poopy on the inside.
Everyone likes Ben but he's a real asshole. I guess he's just poopular.

i like this one. now there's an adjective to describe that popular girl that we all hate. hahaha.

The reason why i went to this website was because i was searching for wat Shawty and Zonin' meant. Well, you always hear these words from the R&B songs. like Florida's Low. I'm sure most of u know this song and have heard of it. And u certainly won't be able to find the definitions of these words in the dictionary. so here u go, an URBAN DICTIONARY.

there's nothing u can't find through the Internet nowadays ey??

that's it for now, gonna go heat up my macaroni & cheese and continue watching my SATC!

MWAH!

shitty mood

2008-07-25T09:46:00.004+08:00

Have you ever woke up in the morning, after 3 alarms, still not wanting to get out of bed but know you have to and then force urself to wake up even though it's shivering and you just hate work and just DON'T WANT TO GET UP? that's exactly how i'm feeling now. Damn i hate work. Damn i hate waking up on a cold winter morning. Damn i hate... it just makes you feel so hateful u don't even know what u hate! argghh. so much for my TGIF.

gotta go catch the bus to work now. arggh i hate bus schedules. why does this bus have to come every 1 hour???? i gotta wake up early for nothing but to catch the bus, arrive there early for nothing but because of the bus. argghhh. %@*&#*()^%$

shitty mood today.

*update*

i just got back from work. and..

i) i did not make ANY sales today. didn't manage to make even ONE! it was really quiet. sien.

ii) this is what really pissed me off. in our store there is a floor manager. a floor manager is the one who approaches customers when they come in, ask for their names and what queries they have, and then pass them on to the sales consultants. Well today, the floor manager, let's just call her FM, she was taking the names and details of one customer, and then 2 guys came in, and because she was busy with other customers she didn't notice them. Then, some other customers came in, and she went up to approach them, so she still didn't notice that 2 guys i mentioned earlier on. So, i noticed all this, and as i was free and doin nothing, i tot i'd be a good samaritan and go up to tell her that those 2 guys came in earlier on. this was wat happened:

ME: *****(that's her name), those 2 guys over there came in just now.
FM: no worries. and *pauses for awhile* I DO NOT NEED YOU TO CONTINUE TELLING ME WHO CAME IN. (in a beh song kind of tone)

WTF!!! i helped her out of good will and this is what i get?? FINE! next time u miss any customers and they get impatient and get angry don't blame me!

SHIT! i knew today wasn't a good day.

p.s. for those of u who don't understand hokkien, beh song means er.. unhappy/unsatisfied/angry/crossed, well u get the idea..

whatever too lazy to thk of a title.

2008-07-21T17:58:00.006+08:00

Oops! i just realised the previous post was my 100th post! Too bad i missed it, but who says i can't also celebrate my 101th post rite?? So, HOORAY to my 101th post! okay that was lame, whatever. so juz shut up.

So, i know i should have updated right after my first shift ended. but i didn't, for a few reasons:

i) i was sick. According to Amy ( a friend of mine who is also a qualified pharmacist), there has been this 'gastro' virus goin around. and it seemed like i was one of the unfortunate ones who had caught some of those nasty stuff. well, judging by its name, u should already have a good idea of what i've been goin thru the past few days. still don't understand? it's DIARRHEA followed by NAUSEATIC FEELINGS or vice versa. for me, i had diarrhea first, and then the nauseatic feeling came. i was already feeling 'uncomfortable' during work, i even had to go to the toilet to 'release' during work. thank GOD my shift was only 4 hours. i thought i just had a bad stomach but little did i noe, the nightmare didn't stop there. after i got home, i wasn't feeling well and i had to frequent the toilet like every 10 mins and stay in the toilet for 30 mins or so! NO KIDDING HEY! trust me, im not exaggerating at all! it got to the extent where i had to take 6 gastro-stop pills or whatever it's called. it was AWFUL! it continued like that till the second day. i hardly had any sleep at all, and whn i finally felt better towards the end after taking those pills, i still woke up once in a while because of the pain and wanting to go to the toilet. i know, poor me. and u know what the worst part is?? whn i told my friends who called or messaged me during that time what i was goin thru, THEY WERE LITERALLY LAUGHING AT ME! SUCH NICE FRIENDS I HAVE, HUH??? HMPH.

ok enuf abt that. next,

ii) my first shift was.. how should i put it. it was relatively easy, i mean, all i had to do was, taking the phone (iPhone, yes i got to play with the iPhone throughout my whole shift), explaining how to use it to customers, and playing around with the phone, showing the phone off and telling customers how great, how awesome, how amazing this revolutionary phone, widescreen iPod, and breakthrough internet device is. and watching customers go like " wow! that's awesome! " "wow! i gotta have one!" "hey mate, *talking to other customers* this thing is amazing!", and also, not forgetting their big-eyed, wide-mouthed facial expressions. lol. yeap. iPhone does have that effect on people huh. so basically, i didn't need to do much, juz tap here tap there, and putting a big wide smile on my face. sounds easy? yes, but whn i got home and called another demonstrator who was also working in Telstra Carousel, i found out that i wasn't doing my job quite correctly. Well, the thing is, i was told to just demonstrate the iPhone ONLY. But as a demonstrator, i was employed to be working under a campaign, namely 'Telstra NextG', which i mentioned before. My job is to promote Telstra NextG which includes the features such as BigPond, Foxtel mobile, Yellow mobile, City Search etc, which i totally ignored during my first shift. iPhone was just one of the highlights, it wasn't the main focus of my job. Well, after realizing this mistake that i made, i immediately wrote an email to my direct manager explaining why my report stated all other demonstrations with Telstra NextG as zero, nada. ( we have to submit a report stating how many demonstrations we have done and what sort of demonstrations we performed bla bla bla ). So, there goes my already-not-so-good-image-for-being-late-during-training. Sigh.. jia you la Caren!! don't let yourself look even worse!

that's my work uniform with the launching of iPhone 3G ( just first shift and i already have 3 different types of working uniform. What can i say, Telstra is a rich company )

anyway, lets move on.

iii) my SATC - SEX AND THE CITY marathon of course! i'm already finishing season 3, gonna move on to season 4 later. arggh! ANGRY! Carrie is so stupid lor! i totally agree with XiaXue! Aidan is like the perfect man! He loved her soo dearly and she go sleep with her married ex-boyfriend, not just once, not just twice, but multiple times! idiot or wat?? i noe i noe, it's just a tv show.

****

Now, sum really old pictures i should have posted up long ago. Alex's birthday!!

Esther, Rhys, Quan (Wtf with that face??!), Mua, and Lexxy!

Guys singingStrawberry Cheesecake. Hm.. a bit too sweet, i'd say.

Lol! look at that so cute! the Happy Birthday song we sang for Alex.
Birthday boy cutting his cake with goofy face.

Jac & Jou.. aww.. so sweet..

Last but not least, Esther. hehe.
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china earthquake strips + SPOILERS!!

2008-07-17T17:17:00.011+08:00

as i was checking my email, i came across dis forwarded email from Spice which was sent a few days ago. i decided to post it up here because it's just so touching. dis is really worth a good read. and i am not ashamed to say dat it brought tears to my eyes. dis is how it goes.

CHINA EARTHQUAKE STRIPS

Hello. This is Coco Wang. As you know the breaking news of 5.12 Earthquake in China, almost all the TV channels in China are broadcasting 24 hours non-stop of every development and stories of all the rescue operations in all damaged locations.

I don't know how much information the BBC or any UK media received from us, I imagine the UK audiences were presented with the major developments of the incident, but you are probably unaware of many important and inside details which are only known to people inside China.

The amount of incredibly moving stories of victims, rescuers, and volunteers is simply shocking at the moment. I have been collecting newspapers of all the stories, and telling them in the form of comic strips. I hope these stories could show the UK readers the love, warmth and courage of the Chinese people, also the sad and cruel reality of the horrible 5.12 Earthquake.

I am back home in Beijing now. Thousands of heart-breaking stories are happening 24 hours non-stop everyday, some are so sad that you can hardly bear, some are incredibly moving that you just can't stop crying... I wanted to go to the front to help with all those people, some of my friends have already gone there, but I heard that the traffic needed to be kept totally clear for rescue transportation at the moment, people like me without knowledge of first-aid and experience of rescue operations going there now would cause choas and trouble... but I can't just sit at home and do nothing, I have been crying my eyes out in the past three days, I have never felt more proud of my country and people... their love, courage and kindness rock me to my core! I have decided to tell these touching stories by drawing comics. I am going to send you comic strips almost everyday from now on, I hope you could know something about the earthquake in China, although you don't have to do anything, but I hope you could feel our love and hope.

Thank you all so much.
Coco Wang

(sorry guys i know the pictures are awfully small, just right-click and select Open in New Tab to avoid going back and forth to view the pictures.)

*****

Anyway, i went to Greater Union in Innaloo to watch The Dark Knight last nite. i just love Greater Union! it's so much more bigger and spacious than Hoyts, and not forgetting, much more high-class also. Even the seats are more comfortable and spacious too. The only downside is that it is located sooo far away at west perth! the cinema was sooooo packed last nite! it was a lot bigger than Hoyts's cinemas, and it was full! yeah, The Dark Knight just came out yesterday. that was why. ok back to the movie.

**SPOILERS ALERT**

The movie was good, Heath Ledger was definitely, undeniably the best person to play the role of the morbid Joker. His performance was impeccable! His laugh was not too corny, not too pretentious, and was more than enough to send shivers up my spine. There were also a few funny scenes which were, of course played by the psychopathic Joker. I guess compared to Christian Bale who played the role of Batman, Heath Ledger's performance was by far much more intriguing and compelling. Don't get me wrong, Batman, oops, should i say, the Dark Knight was as heroic as ever. However, the role of Rachel Dawes played by Maggie Gyllenhaal, i thought, could have been done much better? And, IN MY HUMBLE OPINION, she's not even pretty! why can't they get someone prettier to play the role of Batman's sweetheart?? Like Spiderman, they've got Kirsten Dunst, The Incredible Hulk, they've got Liv Tyler, even Iron Man's got Gwyneth Paltrow! Nevertheless, she still died in the end, so doesn't make any difference after all. Ha-Ha. Then comes Aaron Eckhart, The two-face Dent ( Harvey Dent ). It's amazing how technology has evolved these days. After half of his face was burnt severely due to the explosion, he turned into a two-face. a gruesome two-face. Eww~ the thought of that other side of his face is just nauseating. i thought he was going to be the next villain in another sequel or something, but he still died in the end. lol. but they didn't show what happened to Joker. i mean, he broke out of the lock up once, he could just break out another time easily rite?? Last but not least, Batman did not want to be a hero, because according to Harvey Dent, u either live short as a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become a villain. So he did not want to be a hero, instead he became a 'watchful protector', hence the name The Dark Knight.

-The End-

p.s. i have this HUGE, no, HUMONGOUS pimple on the tip of my nose rite now! arggh! so irritating! tomorrow's my first shift and i'm goin to have to carry this freakin pimple out to face evyone. SHIT!

Shitty Transperth buses

2008-07-16T00:18:00.004+08:00

an artist which i just discovered lately - Stevie Hoang.

he's AWESOME! man whn i first heard this song - Addicted, i tot it was another piece of Usher or Ne-Yo's work. but NO! Stevie Hoang is an Asian. Impressive, i would say. His debut album "This Is Me" is really good, well at least i really liked it. those of u who like R&B / Soul music would definitely come to appreciate this album, just as i did.

After an incredible rise to the top of the myspace chart out of nowhere ,comes RnB singer/songwriter/producer Stevie Hoang. This multi-talented musician honed his skills writing and producing for some of the biggest urban acts in the industry and only last year turned his hand to singing and performing. With a huge fan base and following on myspace and youtube, his debut album 'This is me' is set to become a huge success. Stevie Hoang is rapidly emerging as the first major Chinese artist to breakthrough with his unique R&B and oriental sound.

All Stevie Hoang fans, not to mention fans of the R&B / Soul genre will not be disappointed with this superb debut offering from one of the UK's most impressive new talents. Incorporating a mixture of up-tempo tracks and smooth slow jams, there's something here for everyone. The fusion of oriental influence is ever present which, as Stevie's signature style, separates him head and shoulders above the rest. Fans will be pleased to hear that all time favourites such as the incredible 'Addicted' and the unforgettable 'One Last Try', take pride of place on this album, alongside an array of fresh new tracks that will leave you undoubtedly wanting more!

So go download and listen! i downloaded his whole album hey! =)
Some other songs from the album which i just simply adore are: Luv U, No Games - (these 2 songs are accompanied with chinese-like background music), One Last Try, Why You Wanna Leave, Too Late, Be With Me, Cry No More, just to name a few, quite a few. haha actually most his songs are really nice.

So.. time passed really fast for me last few days. i don't even know what i've been doing. i tot i just updated not long ago, and wahlah. 5 days alrdy.

i had my first training for Telstra this morning. and I WAS LATE! all because of the stupid buses laaa! i had to take 2 buses to get to Cannington Train Station to get off at McIver and walk to the Telstra centre. dis is wad happened. 1st bus was late for 7 mins, which resulted in me missing my 2nd bus. so i had to wait 30 mins for the next bus. so i figured there was still time if i got there in time and catch the train. but guess what?? the 2nd bus was ALSO LATE! late for a freakin 11 mins, so i missed my train and had to wait another 10 mins for the next service!!! freakin pissed alrdy at that stage. so i decided i'd call to let them noe that i'd be late. and then it started to rain. GREAT! just GREAT. after i got off at McIver train station, i had to walk to find Telstra Centre ( never been there before ). So i was cold, wet, pissed, angry, nervous, and afraid of leaving a bad impression for being late. there goes my long-awaited training. i was so excited for this new job la! TRANSPERTH SUCKS! -especially the buses! imagine, my training started at 10.30. i left the house at 8.30, in the end still ended up late (would only take 1 hr if evythg went on schedule). if u were me, u pissed or not??? OF COURSE PISSED LA!!
and then, during the training, the coordinator said i was SHY! shit, another minus point. u know u can't be SHY to be a sales person rite? u nid to be out there, u nid to have personality, charisma, and enthusiasm. and he specifically said this " if u're a shy person, *looks to me and says* like Caren, bla bla bla" forgot wad he said liaw la after that. i was so embarrased alrdy. mentioned me in front of evyone saying i was SHY. i tried so hard to speak out during the training alrdy leh. and whn i was doing my self introduction, i even made the attempt to crack some jokes. like that still shy meh?? shiat. in a room full of auzzies, it is normal that i would feel a little bit out of place and reluctant to speak out with that so-not-auzzie accent of mine.

so now, they probably thk im the worst demonstrator they've hired among the others. i hope i'd be able to present well whn my shift starts and seriously make some good sales.

*fingers crossed*

wish me luck!

i heart Havaianas!

2008-07-10T00:10:00.006+08:00

First of all, YES! results are out!
okay, mine was satisfactory, in fact, it was much better than i had anticipated - 2 High Distinctions and 2 Distinctions (not intending to brag). Guess it was because i had stopped working 2 weeks before the exams, so i could concentrate on studying, unlike last semester, where i still had to work even on the day right before the exam. Anyway, it's just Commerce first year, ask the seniors, they'd tell u the same thg - it's freakin' easy lor! (again, not intending to brag)

So...

went to the city this aftnoon with Charmaine and David. David needed erm.. a 'fashion consultant/advisor' should i put it that way? helped him picked a few jeans, few collar shirts, and a collar t-shirt. and GUESS WHAT?? while we were at the surf shop - City Beach, i found this!

yes this! Metallic Light Rose Slim Havaianas!
arhh!!! *screams with joy* so pretty rite???
the moment i laid my eyes on it, i knew it was gonna be mine! i've been wanting to get a new pair of havaianas since so long ago but i haven't found one that i liked. and then i saw this! it was just perfect! and it was the last pair with my size. As most of u would have already known, i have small feet. it's soooo hard to find shoes that fit. what say havaianas.. so.. yay me!

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Innocence

2008-07-08T18:02:00.003+08:00

there are times when u know the right thing to do, is to let go.
but somehow, that tiny little voice deep inside of u manages to breakthrough, and makes u wanna say..

i miss you.

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry

just another mundane day

2008-07-07T01:49:00.008+08:00

aiya keep asking me to update my blog more often.. i got nothing to write la how to update!!

okay as i have mentioned before, my life is boring for now. my daily life is very predictable - it's either catching up with hongkie/tawainese series, mahjong, or sleeping, or groceries shopping or movies. sleeping is normally wad's occupying most of my time. winter just makes it so nice to hide under my blanket and enjoy that warm and cosy feeling.

okay, u want to know what's been goin on.. let me see..

i) my washing machine spoilt. it has been emitting extremely loud and blaring noise while in use for quite some time already.. but i didn't give it much of a thought. so, i was washing clothes one evening and suddenly smoke came out and my housemate saw it and went to turn it off. turns out there was a big hole at one of the spinning thing. i had to handwash them, squeeze them dry and after that hang them. boy it was tiring.

ii) i've finished downloading Sex And The City Season 1. halfway thru Season 2. i find it really interesting and u can really learn a lot thru the series.

iii) bird came over to play mahjong with us few nites ago, and he lost! haha!

iv) i've been learning English diligently lately by checking the dictionary whenever i came across words which i didn't understand. check this site out www.freerice.com - u not only get to expand ur English vocabulary skills, u're actually donating 20 grains of rice for each word u get right thru the UN World Food Program to help end hunger. (i've donated 1020 grains of rice)very studious and benevolent of me ey ;)

v) have been checking out XiaXue's blog frequently. she's really funny and cracks the hell out of me each time i read her blog. this 'battle' between her and Dawn is really interesting. i'm taking no sides here, i still thk Dawn is really pretty, even though she is rumoured to be plastic. but i really like Xiaxue's writing style. she's cool.

vi) my front hair is too long dy. nid to get it cut. but im still contemplating if i should cut it short. like real short. but im gonna miss my curls! advice, recommendations anyone?

vii) oh ya i did sumthg really stupid just now. i wanted to cook eggs just now. what i normally do is, crack the eggs in a cup, and add butter, milk and a tinge of salt and put it in the microwave for 1 min. and it'll be ready to eat ( learnt this from previous job). so, the stupid thg i did was, i put it in a cup which had plastic (it was metal on the inside and plastic on the outside if u know what i mean). I KNOW! it was really careless of me! i just went absentminded for that while there. i normally use the ceramic cup which is microwave-safe. but i don't know why i used the plastic cup this time. so i felt the smell of burnt plastic abt 3o seconds after it was cooking. quickly stopped it and had to clean the microwave, clean the surroundings and open the window to let the air flow. it was POISONOUS! POISONOUS i tell u! only a few minutes of inhaling the toxic air, my hands were shaking, my body felt weak, and i was suffering from headache for around half an hour. ahh.. how much more stupid can i get? (u do noe that im not expecting an answer for this question rite?)

a recent photo of me
okay i admit, i photoshopped it to look slimmer. i DO look a little bit fatter/chubbier now with winter and evythg ( just a teensy weensy little bit ). can't blame me for wanting to look good in pictures rite? hehe..
Desert at Hog's Breath.( forgot the name alrdy la ) but it's really yum!
me and jac
jou and jesslyn
birdie in action with jou at the background.
that's all for now. seriously can't thk of anythg else to write.

p.s. currently listening to Don't Hold Back - The Potbellez. they're always playing it! but it's nice though..

Thank GOD!

2008-07-02T11:39:00.006+08:00

YES! YES! YES! I GOT A JOB! hoorrayyy!

okay im not gonna say much here coz im not really sure what my job is about. all i noe is im gonna be working for Telstra (NextG - click here in case u're wondering what that is) and i'll be working in Carousel most of the times but might be in the city when they need people there. i'll also be working for Sony (printers and digital cameras). hehez.. im having my training next Tuesday in the city!

wheeeeee~

no more bread with nutella/ham&cheese every single day! no more "awww.. i can't go out, i don't have money! wait till i get a job la"! (yes alex i know u're the happiest of all to see this, and don't worry as promised i will treat u guys dinner whn i get my first pay, and ben too). Special thanks to Ben, without you, i wouldn't have found this job. Thank you all for have been so supportive. =D

okay, next, a little update of what i've been doin the past few days.
went to watch a game of basketball. Alex, Roid, and Andrew's team got into the finals. congrats! even though you guys didn't win, but hey, it's still second place =)

Limited Edition Showtime Flavours Skittles. the Popcorn flavoured one is yucky. others are okay.

went to Jade for steamboat. i like the ceiling. gives me a feeling of the Ching dynasty or sumthg. ate until i almost exploded. nah, just kidding.

watched Get Smart. i don't know why but whn i went to watch that movie i was kinda emo? nah that's not the word. i wasn't emo, i was abit .. kinda felt like everything was so plain and boring in life. of course la stay at home every single day eating bread and instant noodles only and sleep like a pig. made me a lil' 自闭 (dunno how to say dat in english la -self enclosed? kept to self?). no doubt there were quite a few funny scenes. guess it's just my problem. Anne Hathaway was hot and sexy and pretty, Steve Carrell was.. Steve Carrell. his facial expression and that phone-in-a-shoe he's holding in this poster is pretty much self-explanatory.
yeap, that's it, and lots n lots of mahjong and cantonese series marathon. i finished 2 series alrdy. now halfway thru the third one. got another 2 to watch. woo! so many series! but got so much time also la. hehe.

once again, THANK GOD for this job. i really didn't expect to get such a good pay.

toodles ya'all~

movies

2008-06-26T12:11:00.005+08:00

Okay, how should i start. i went to watch The Incredible Hulk.

IT WAS GREAT!

A movie that could actually make someone who was deprived of sleep for a full 32 hours stay awake while seated in a comfy chair and dark cinema theatre is definitely complimentary.

This is what happened. The day before, i woke up at 10am, watched a few cantonese series, and went to jac & jou's room for a chit chat and arranged our class timetables for next semester. After that, i had dinner, continued watching a few series and then went online to talk to some of my frens till 2am. so after jac got bck from work, we started playing mahjong again from 2am till 9am. Then, we went to the city for breakfast and helped KC (one of my housemates) to buy some clothes for his girlfriend back in Malaysia. it was then KC suggested we'd go watch The Incredible Hulk. So off we went, to Carousel, and got tickets for the 3.20pm show. Even before the movie started, i was alrdy half asleep while they were playing the previews. my eyelids kept falling and i thought i'd just sleep throughout the whole movie. In the beginning of the movie, i actually did fall asleep, but was woken up by the loud booms and crashes in the movie. Things started to get more and more interesting and i actually forgot that i was tired and didn't feel sleepy at all! However, the part where Tony Stark (Iron Man) appeared at the end of the movie really surprised me. Guess they're gonna make a sequel where Iron Man and The Hulk would join forces to defeat another villian or sumthg? Well, they said it was much better than the first one but i didn't watch that so i can't comment on that. Anyway, i got home around 6pm and went to sleep straight away. there goes my 32 hours without sleep. hehe.

Also, i just got back from watching Kung Fu Panda. Lol. i thk it was funny lor.. especially the acupuncture part. ok i'm not gonna say much abt dat part, anyone who have watched it would understand. it juz made me laugh non stop. but i didn't get how panda defeated Tai-long though. that part was kinda like.. roughly brought over? i reckon they should have had a better storyline of how Panda defeated Tai-long. Angelina Jolie's voice was sexy. Jackie Chan only had a few lines, Lucy Liu too. Jack Black did a pretty good job, i'd say.

That's it for two of my movie reviews. im off to sleep now. had mahjong again dis morning from 4am - 10am. tata~

holidays

2008-06-22T20:23:00.008+08:00

Weather was pleasant today.. plenty of sunshine and a cool breeze.. ah.. this is the best part of winter.. winter could be rather enjoyable at times (minus the heavy rain and sturdy wind). Nothing beats a relaxing meal of dim sum at 六福海鲜 on a fine winter morning. And, the best part comes after -- MAHJONG

have been playing mahjong for few days in a row ever since everyone (my housemates) have finished their exams. oh well, lost a few rounds, won a few rounds. there's nth better to do at home anyway, besides catching up with the hongkie and taiwanese dramas.. am currently watching 法政先锋II. muahahhaa. all the big big hongkie stars are in that series lor.. SO NICE!

ahhhh! i nid a job! INSTANTLY!! damn it. i feel like a useless person staying at home everyday doin nth and wasting my time. eating bread for breakfast, lunch (brunch) and dinner (instant noodles occasionally) to save money. so kelian rite? "wholegrain bread + nutella" my fav, n my best companion these few weeks. lets hope i dont get sick of nutella too soon so i can still save up till i get a job. =(

oh yea! i went to watch You Don't Mess With The Zohan last nite with Alex, Quan, and his friend Andrew . The movie was RIDICULOUSLY HILARIOUS! Seriously, it is STUPID and IDIOTIC but it was so funny we practically laughed the whole way through the movie. Adam Sandler has a nice butt btw ;) and that supposedly "Israelish" accent of his.. lol.. all i can say is, anyone who wants a good laugh, go ahead. Kung Fu Panda coming out next Thursday! woot! *anticipating**anticipating*

*mom called*

*approximately 1 hour later*

ok.. im back.
feels so nice evytime after talking to mom and my dearest bao bei. sigh.. she's all grown up now. go high school alrdy. got her own friends alrdy. got her own attitude also. hmph. sumtimes i juz feel so sad. it's like.. she was still juz a little baby, so chubby and cute, and now she's a teenager who's taller than me! it's amazing yet scary how fast time passes.. isn't it?

well, i thk that's all for today. my life is boring (at least for now).
no job + no uni + no money = no life.

toodles~

*update - 3 hours later after reading KennySia and DawnYang's blog. don't ask me why. figure it out urself, if u can.

sometimes a picture is worth thousands of words.

but here, one word would suffice - IGNORANT

CRAPPY CRAPPY CRAPPP

2008-06-18T14:35:00.004+08:00

sigh.. everyone's goin back to Kuching.. SIEN LAAA..

i wan to go back home too! =(

i wan to escape from all these madness!

don't have to worry about the money that i have left in my bank account, don't have to worry if i get a good job with a decent pay, don't have to worry about the stupid weather whenever i need to go out, don't have to worry about what i have to eat for the day, don't have to worry about what i'm goin to do for the day.. don't have to face all these f*ckin bullshit!

if u're wondering why, it's because my dearest auntie, very nice of her, has decided to pay me a visit today.
hence, this crappy crappy mood.

mahjong tonite! at least there's sumthg to look forward to =/

一厢情愿，我也有这一天。。

2008-06-16T23:21:00.010+08:00

犹豫了好久，最后，还是post上来了。。

一直以来，根本没有什么‘勇敢追逐’可言。。

只有所谓的‘一厢情愿’。

现在，觉得自己真的很可笑。。

之前你说过的那些话，都是在开玩笑的吗？
我想是吧。。你的玩笑，未免，也开得太大了吧？
为什么，当我告诉你，我对你是认真的时候，你并没有停止，反而，玩笑越开越大了呢？
是有心要令我难堪的吗?

终于，我们之间的事，也告一段落了。也许一直以来，根本没有什么‘我和你’。。我清楚了。这个答案，我等了那么久，一直要等到我逼你说出来你才肯说。。还逼了两次。。感觉自己好犯贱，在践踏自己的自尊。黄恺珑，看看你自己。。成了个什么样？？错了一次，还没学乖吗？？

你，也学会负责任一点，好吗？
你说一直是我自己“想太多”，叫我放轻松。
这句话，我听了，多难过，多失望。
我很努力在你面前装作很坚强，我不哭。。但是。。我的努力，你看得到吗？你根本都不在乎。
怎么可以吧所有责任推到我身上？明明。。是你开始这一切的。。
是你贸贸然走进了我原本已经慌乱不堪的生活，然后又一声也不响的就这么离开。之后，又在我毫无防备的时候，跑回来扰乱我几下，又走了。这样你觉得很好玩吗？？

一点都不好玩。。

那天晚上，我真的很生气，我很气为什么是你自己说过的话，却当做没这一回事。
我很气为什么我明明问了你那么多次，要你给我个答案那么多次，是你都不理，却又说是我从来没问过。我很不服气，我很生气，但是我却没法讨厌你。我怎么能讨厌你呢？这几个月来，我每天做的事，就是想你，没有一天你没浮现在我的脑海中。好想停止这一切，但是，这个想念你的习惯，似乎已经成了我每天生活中必有的。

但是，我相信，我会好起来的。如果你对我这个朋友还有那个最起码的情谊的话，请不要，再来捣乱我的生活了。我拜托你。可不可以，放我走？

其实，他根本就不看我的部落格，他可能甚至不知道我部落格的网址，他也根本不在乎。他也根本不会读华语。。哈哈。。别傻了，只是想说出来，心里好过一点吧。。

老天爷啊，我不要再陷入任何感情的困难了。。接下来的日子，就让我自己一个人，和我的朋友们一起过吧，好不好？
我不要了，不要了。。我不敢了。。真的不敢了。。
求求你了。。

2008-06-08T18:33:00.002+08:00

Caren Wong shall disappear from the face of the internet for a short term of period.

don't miss me. i shall be back.

$%^$!&&@#(&#!

2008-06-05T12:00:00.004+08:00

after reading Millie's blogpost abt her closing down her blog n switching to VOX coz blogger was being a bitch and she screwed up her blogger template, i decided to go back to my own blogger template, and add her new blog url into my blogroll. and GUESS WHAT!!!!!

STUPID BLOGGER WAS BEING A BITCH AND I SCREWED UP MY OWN BLOGGER TEMPLATE! (hm.. now why does dis sound so familiar??!!)

SOOOO, i had to go thru my massive pile of document files and try to find my long ago backed-up blogger template. AND RE-DO EVERY SINGLE SHIT OF EDITING I DID BACK THEN FROM ADDING LINKS AND WIDGETS TO MODIFYING THE COLOUR OF THE FONT AND BACKGROUND! ARGGHHHHHH...

*after a moment of calming self down*

luckily, i managed to recover evythg and now my blog looks exactly the same as it did before ( i think ).

lastly, i can only give u guys a piece of my most earnest advice:

"ALWAYS BACK UP YOUR BLOGGER TEMPLATE COZ U CAN NEVER PREDICT BLOGGER'S MOOD SWINGS AND MIGHT END UP JUST LIKE ME."

thank you.

我该放弃吗？

2008-06-04T13:09:00.003+08:00

如果已经决定放弃了，就不要再回头了。
一直在决定放弃和勇敢追逐这两者之间徘徊，真的很辛苦的。。

我，该做的，都做了。
能够做的，也都做了。问心无愧。

我。。
决定。。
放弃了。。

请不要再让我回头了。

因为，我真的累了。

Winter's here

2008-06-02T13:40:00.008+08:00

Exams are in a week's time. it's the study week now, and i've been studying A LOT.
okay guys, I'M NOT WORKING AT GELARE CAROUSEL anymore. it's been 2 weeks. im sorry it took me dis long to break the news coz i wanted to tell my mom first before i posted it up here. dat explains why i have so much free time to study and do sum other stuff lol. so, those of u who go there to visit me, u don't have to go there anymore. i might be getting another job in carousel though.. hm.. we'll see.

oh, i've watched Indiana Jones, which didn't exactly live up to my expectations. IT'S A CRAPPY MOVIE! yeah there are sum really funny parts, but still, it's so unrealistic and everything is just in a mess. com'on, how did Shia LaBeouf know how to swing like the monkeys just like dat? if it's so easy monkeys won't be called monkeys. and the UFO and ET part is just..... and.. and that Agent Spalko (Cate Blanchett, which happens to be auzzie) just vanishing into thin air like dat.. so superficial lor.

enough abt dat alrdy. i've also watched What Happens In Vegas, which i reckon is much much much better than Indiana Jones. The movie flow is smooth, there are some pretty funny, yet romantic scenes.. and ASHTON KUTCHER!! omg! he's just so so cute lor.. despite having the nerdy hairstyle, he can still be so good looking! sigh.. some people are just so lucky.

am currently downloading Made of Honor, which i heard is supposed to be good. hm.. *anticipating* *anticipating* Patrick Dempsey! (McDreamy of Grey's Anatomy) ahahhaa. i finally finished watching season 4 finale of Grey's Anatomy.. so happy lor! Derek and Meredith got back together. awww. so sweet!

oh yes, it's June! it's June! Winter's here. there was a storm on saturday according to the news, where wind speed reached 115kmh! 115 leh! can u imagine?? and it's been getting colder n colder, it's been raining a lot too.. sigh.. time to unpack all those winter clothing..

went to the city on friday with esther to do some 'window shopping'.. it's been so long since i went down to the city lor.. i've been to northbridge a lot of times for dinner and harbour town but never really got to go to the city centre.. i just miss the feel of the city.. we were walking around till 3pm, and suddenly decided to go to fremantle beach. dis is wad u call SPONTANEITY. it wasn't pre planned at all, and so we just walked to the train station and headed all the way down to fremantle. here are sum of the pictures we took.

big 'christmas tree' right in front of fremantle train station. so pretty!

more 'christmas trees'! don't u juz love seeing them? don't get to see them back in malaysia.. probably fake ones only..

esther and me. hugz!

me playing with the sea water (the water was soooooo cold)

footprints in the sand

-end-

p.s. i'm sick again. my pretty little pink bin under my table is piled up with crunched up kleenex full of germs and mucus.

GOODBYE to emo

2008-05-24T17:32:00.005+08:00

okay so i changed the song on my blog..
enuf of the ur-blog-is-emo-and-it's-making-me-sick posts. yeah, there have been quite a few emo posts lately ey~ yeap GOODBYE to emo!

yes i noe dis song is a very OLD song, but it's so so.. i can't even thk a word to describe dis song! it just makes me wanna jump up and down and dance! so we were walking on the streets of northbridge last nite and there was a pub/club or watever playing this song and we ( me n esther ) were literally dancing on the streets. lol..

Du-Du-Du
Du-Du-Du-Du
Du-Du-Du
Du-Du-Du-Du

Ah, dis part keeps ringing in my head..

MWAHHHH!
i love the crystal curtains behind me!

my sweetie wiggles!
don't noe wad i'd do without u here =D
*hugz*

last but not least, the not-gay-at-all lexxie!

dats all for now folks~

2008-05-22T22:34:00.005+08:00

little broadway theatre says (10:33 PM):
wa...
little broadway theatre says (10:33 PM):
next week i make chocolate marble cheese cake i pass some to u
little broadway theatre says (10:33 PM):
feed u fat fat
little broadway theatre says (10:33 PM):
lolz

little broadway theatre says (10:35 PM):
eh
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
better finish up the cheese cake arh
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
dun waste my effort oo
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
next week try marble cheese cake
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
if not then tiramisu
Caren says (10:36 PM):
zzz
Caren says (10:36 PM):
esther!!!
Caren says (10:36 PM):
im gaining liawwwww
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
yea
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
isn that good?
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
at least u are not starving
little broadway theatre says (10:36 PM):
=D

now u noe why im getting fatter n fatter each week

2008-05-21T06:00:00.004+08:00

worse thgs happen when u least expect it.

i thought thgs were bad enough.

apparently not.

6.02AM, im still awake. no, i haven't slept since last nite. wad is happening to me?

*update

okie sumthg was wrong wif my mind. will update on wat exactly happened whn im free or whn i feel like doin so. for now, nid to study for friday's exam.

p.s. yay! i get to paint my nails again!
p.p.s. esther, u're making me fat! stop baking me cheesecakes!!

me love Red Bull

2008-05-18T12:45:00.005+08:00

yes i've been blogging a lot lately. i don't know y. maybe it's just the Red Bull.
i nid to talk. i nid to say sumthg. i nid to express my feelings and thoughts! I NEED TO LET GO!

WHY WON'T YOU LET ME LET GO?

Red Bull makes me happy. Red Bull makes me high. but it makes my frens say im goin insane. mayb i am. soon. me love Red Bull.

im listening to dis emo song Tina Cousins - Wonderful Life. well it's not meant to be emo, but i just feel so emo listening to it. it's a wonderful wonderful life~~
it's a song for one of Hoyts' ads, btw.

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went to watch 21 yesterday. yeah it was good. funny, and good, but still i don't get it, how can u count cards while playing Blackjack. lol.. but the girl, Kate Bosworth, she's HAWT! no good looking guys though.. hmph. am anticipating Indiana Jones and Narnia! can't wait! y do they have to come out at dis time so near to the finals!

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yes yes! i finally caught up with Gossip Girl! wooh! Dan kissed Georgina! omg! the final episode showed him holding georgina's hand walking down the street. man he better not f*ck her. Dan was supposed to be the 'good' guy. the 'different' one. sigh, dis is juz so sad. Guys are just.. unworthy of being trusted of? don't even try to correct me. guys just break girls hearts.. all the time.

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was talking to Jason last nite in msn. It was his last nite in NZ. guess he's sumwhere on the plane rite now or sumthg.. sigh poor boy, went out for a farewell with his friends, and then he's goin back to Malaysia, for good, today. This is just life. you come, and you go. it makes me wonder how its gonna be when i finally graduate and leave Perth ( if i decide to go bck ). i mean, life hasn't been easy here, life hasn't been as comforting as it had before, and the people i've met here, lets juz say i've met the best, and the worst people that i've ever met in my whole life here. well, since it's still early to talk abt dis, im juz gonna see how thgs go for me in the next 2 years throughout my stay.

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Woot! went to Little Caesars (supposedly World's Best Pizza due to the numerous awards won) last nite. So, we drove for around half an hour all the way to Mundaring, stood outside in the cold for an hour to wait for seats, n after we finally got our seats, we waited for another half an hour for our pizzas to come. left house at 6.30pm, returned home at 10pm. lol.. just for the sake of this World's Best Pizza.

its quite a small store as you can see, and there were tons of people standing outside waiting for seats and take away pizzas.

these are some of the awards. sorry the the dodgy picture. there are more on the other side of the ceiling.

Sorry, no pictures of the pizzas taken. Was too hungry alrdy by the time the pizzas came.. lol.

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Finally got to go to church dis morning. haven't been to church in weeks! have been working on Sunday mornings most of the time.

Thank You God, for this inner comfort that You never fail to give me. I'm sorry i've been so distant. I'm sorry i haven't been giving You space in my daily life. I'm sorry i haven't talked to u in a while. but, You never left me. Thank You, so much.

p.s. it's getting cold!! toilet seats are soooooo cold!

2008-05-16T13:33:00.002+08:00

okieee.. blogging dis often is scary. i wanted to blog last nite after work but tot blogging twice in a day was freaky.
guess who i finally met yesterday??
ANDREW! dat notorious guy from the HQ! man he was a pain in the arse. no wonder evyone hates him. he was so stupid he didn't even noe how to use the single shot coffee grinder lor. wat the hell? n u act like u're such a big shot. Anny was so cool. and Peter, the COUNTRYIST ( a new word invented by me referring to someone who discriminates other people from different countries despite having the same race ). he, even though also Asian, but was born here and raised here discriminates me. hmph. laughs at me all the time and bullies me by using all those auzzie slangs which i have no idea of what they meant. and then, there's dis lame joke i read from Jane's blog. lol. Jou is one hell of a lame joker. dis is wad happened.
Jane was folding serviettes at work.
Jou suddenly pointed to the napkins and said
Jou: " u don't need tissues anymore."
Jane:" why?"
Jou:" coz u alrdy have enough in ur body."

okie my blog is turning cold. better stop here.

damn i nid Red Bull!! emo stay away from me!

Profanity and Narcissism

2008-05-15T12:31:00.004+08:00

well, today's blog post will have nothing to do with the title. i'm just learning English. lol..

i juz read Alex's ( Lexxie's, lol it sounds so gay ) blog. Never knew you cared so much for me. Actually, i never knew so many ppl cared so much abt me. im not as helpless as i thought i was in Perth after all.
2 days ago, while reading mom's email, i broke down in tears even before i got till the end. dis happens all the time whn u're away from home. u just cry, for no apparent reason. im sorry i haven't replied ur email yet mom. i just didn't noe wad to say. u read my blog. i can't hide anythg from u now. Bugger.
im also sorry dat whn u called last nite, i was preoccupied with mahjong and wasn't really paying attention while talking to u. im sorry for making u worried all the time. BUT, it's really heartwarming to noe dat my family will always be there for me =D

im sorry, u guys, u all, *big big HUG* for not being myself lately. when 3 or more people say that u're not as bubbly as before, u're not the girl who used to have a smile plastered on ur face wherever u go, it means that u really nid to give urself a smack on ur butt and go find dat cheery and chippy self back! so, here i am, not fully recovered yet, but am working really hard.

i haven't been feeling well lately, physically i mean. was having painful headaches and a sore throat last few days. didn't make thgs better whn i still had to work, AND do closing on a freakin Tuesday. which reminds me, im gonna have to work an 8 hrs shift later from 2 - 10. Oh well, don't worry, im feeling better alrdy, although i still have flu and still have to suffer from headache once in a while.

Dear Debbie,
it really surprises me how well u're holding up. =) tho, i noe sumtimes we juz force ourselves to put on a mask before facing the crowd, even tho we're crying our hearts out deep inside. but, no matter wat, u can always come to me. We deserve much better. Don't ever let sumone like dat ruin u k. Promise? like u said, sad, cry, emo, cry, cry, sad, cry, cry, let go, forget, happy =D

Dear Pat,
thank u thank u thank u thank u! i can never say enuf of dis. u've always been there for me! lol. u were the first one i called last time, and sweet sweet u, bought me strawberries. haha.. dat was so funny. n dis time, i called u again, and u showed up immediately, again. i can never say how much i appreciate it, but pls juz noe.. i'll always be there for u too. im sorry i couldn't talk to u on tuesday coz i was working. i hope thgs would go well wif ur girlfriend. =)

okeeyy, dats all for now, gotta prepare for work. Adios~

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-11T22:45:00.004+08:00

just got off the phone with mom. yeah talked about lots of stuff..
sigh how i miss home, my comfort zone.
finals coming soon.. which brings to the end of this semester.
every semester, sumthg bad seems to happen, i wish my life was just as boring as dust (seriously i mean it).
my mood fluctuates a lot, i cry more often than before, im tired all the time.
i was looking through these pictures we took while we were in high school.. SS3B, how i miss the ol' days.. where all we had to do was play and study. i was free back then, free to do anything i want. but now, i have to worry about money, i have to worry about studies, i have to worry about work, i have to worry about all those little stuff in life that i didn't have to worry about before, and most of all, i have to worry about....

ever since what happened last year, i've always thought coming to Perth was a wrong decision. till now, i still cant see how coming to Perth was ever a good thing for me. i miss the innocence i had back home.. now, things just seem so complicated. the people here are complicated. it seems like there's no one to trust. coming from a small kampung like Kuching, sumtimes i feel myself as a frog beneath the well, and im just about to be devoured by all the big animals waiting outside of the well.

wat im trying to say is, im scared, really scared of getting hurt again. i lost all of my self-confidence, my dignity, and my pride once. it took me dis long to regain that wee bit of faith, please don't take it away from me again. even if i had to beg u, please just don't.

love,
is giving someone the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to

but very often, we trust the wrong person.. or at least, i trust the wrong person, and lead to my self destruction.

再靠近一点点

2008-04-30T16:04:00.000+08:00

默默在你的身后守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我努力让你感动
在你眼中有多麽笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能多一些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受
能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别再紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点
就算我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢笑着和你说再见

Nite out

2008-04-27T13:47:00.005+08:00

Okay, so i went to watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall yesterday..
lol.. it was hilarious.. though, i didn't get some of the jokes, n had to get my fren to explain it to me after the movies.. but overall, it was a good movie.

After that, i quickly rushed home, took a shower, put sum make up on, and went out to enjoy the nite! =D (Cut me some slack, i've been working 4 nites in a row, and it's study week!)
We went to Hogs Breath, famous for its steak..

and then, karaoke, did u noe dat white guys don't sing karaoke? it was Rhys' first time goin karaoke.. lol.. according to him, it was an Asian thg to do.

Alex n Rhys

Me n Esther
Me n Alex
Rhys n me

After that, i joined Bird shit, xiao liang and Kc at Metros.

Me n Xiao Liang
Me n Birdie~ lol..

Kc n me

So that was it for my Saturday.. gotta work again, tonite. =(
n tmr uni's starting, which means assignments and tests time.. sigh.. sucks being a student.

2008-04-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

不要再陷下去了啦！！！黄恺珑！！
醒醒啊！！！

休息

2008-04-17T20:31:00.002+08:00

已经好久好久没有用华文写部落格了。。

今天天气很冷。。夏天过了。。冬天就快来了。。哎~又要冷了。。再过不久，我来这里，也快一年了。。时间过得，真的很快。。太快了。。

最近发生的事也太多了。。不知道为什么，我觉得我跟你们的距离越来越远。。对不起。。
可能是真的吧。。现在大家都有自己的新朋友，新生活。。

之前几个礼拜，简直是忙到我快疯了！
现在才能喘口气。。下个礼拜学校放假。。终于可以休息。。

感情世界？唉~
不知道要怎么讲。。不明不白。。也就算了吧。。

今天，就写到这里。。很累。。

Nina - Someday

2008-04-09T20:20:00.003+08:00

Someday

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i cared

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can tell
I'm down,and i'm not doin' well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

stress

2008-04-08T14:58:00.001+08:00

2 assignments + 2 exams in 7 days = stress

Karma

2008-03-28T16:44:00.002+08:00

do u believe in karma?

i don't know what to thk anymore.

i'm so tired.

i'm exhausted.

i'm weak.

i'm really really weak. i can't stand dis anymore.

i'm trying to look for a way out.. but where is the path?

where is my path?

life is no fairy tale. i believe that.

but i do believe that there are still genuine love, care, and kindness

i noe it is silly to say that im waiting for some kind of 'hero' to save me..

but at this moment, i would really like to ask, where is my hero?

to my dearest little sister..

2008-03-20T12:20:00.003+08:00

suddenly, im just filled wif so much shock and disappointment.
u weren't much of a talker since u started to grow into ur teenage hood.
u were the prettiest among us 3. u were the tallest. u were the one with the most bubbly and cheerful personality. but now..
pls talk to me k? even tho im ur sister, n i noe u'd prefer to turn to ur peers for advice but i am ur sister, i care for u and sincerely hope for all the very best for u. i love u, earnestly and dearly..
i hope wad i read wasn't true. i hope u could still be the cute little sister i used to have. the one who had no worries and as innocent as an angel. do noe dat i love u so so so much.. talk to me k? no matter how bz i am, i will always be there for u..

lots of love,
ur sister

stupid stupid stupid assignment

2008-03-12T16:08:00.005+08:00

im so so so damn tired now! stupid management assignment!

okay.. as promised, photos!

this is the alley to the river juz right outside my house.

tada! here we are..

isn't it juz beautiful?

here, there are ppl bbq-ing.. notice the birds

-finish-

went to Ruby Room last week with Alex, Esther and Jac and Jou.

This is me n Jac. That ang moh behind was juz some random guy who came into the pic whn he saw us taking it. lol

oh and, i DID NOT put any lipstick on. it was the drink i was having. made my lips look so red. shit!

this is alex and me

jou (jac's bf) and me

now where is esther???? lol.. esther was bz making out with a random guy she met in the club. lol.. naughty naughty esther!

now, here is esther. this pic was taken quite awhile ago, in Perth's Zoo

let me introduce someone new to u guys. His name is Rhys, one of my co-worker in Gelare. is he hot or is he hot? he's 6'4 by the way. This pic is the pic of him sitting down and esther standing up. lol

lastly, the funny Alex

-end-
back to assignment *sigh*

2008-03-07T14:52:00.002+08:00

pls, pls, pls stop appearing in front of me.

juz pls.

brief update

2008-03-04T09:58:00.002+08:00

have been suffering from the absence of internet connection at my new place for 2 weeks now. damn i nid internet! ( im in uni's library now in case u're wondering, still got no internet connection bck home ).

Great! 2nd week of uni and my accounting tutor hates me!okay, not exactly hate me kind of hate me, but he talked to me in the sarcastic kind of way, which he does to others as well, but watever.. i hate accounting managerial.

im staying near the river now by the way, woooh~ nice view, will take pictures and post them up here whn there's internet connection bck at home.

oh yea, i thk i strained my right ankle. having difficulty walking normally without pain. and i gotta work tonight. which is a tuesday nite, a half price waffles nite, a movie nite where movie tickets are cheaper, and where there happens to be a movie theater next to the place i work. my life is juz great, isn't it?

well, guess that's juz it. will update more soon.

p.s. im actually getting better n better at pool after a few visits to Pot Black with alex and esther. XD

'tick' 'tock' 'tick' 'tock' time waits for no one

2008-02-15T21:43:00.003+08:00

2 more days.. 33.5 hrs to be exact.
why does time have to pass so fast???

i am sorry if i have been rude to u at times, talked back in a bad manner whn all u did was care for me, and only wanted what was best for me. i am goin to try to be more patient. i promise. try to rest more and stop worrying THAT much for us. alrite?
i love u, mom.

i am sorry if i havent been a very good sister. well, i may have ordered u around, asked u to do thgs for me, n u, as such a sweet little sister was always so 'guai' to oblige. i may have scolded u a few times, tried to teach u how to do thgs, but pls noe, it is all becoz i love u and i want wad is best for u. =) even tho u're taller than me now, but in my eyes, u're still always my cute, adorable little baby sister! MUACKS!
i love u, baby.

i am sorry for not being able to stand ur temper. yes u have a bad temper juz like dad(but still, slightly better than his). i've oways found it hard to show my affections for u. but do noe dat i do love u too and hope that u'll live a happy and fruitful life (which means cutting down the clubbing and splurging).
i love u, sis.

last but not least, u have a temper which not many can understand. pls do try to control. not only for the good of us n all the others who love u, but also for ur own health. u are getting older n older each day and having a bad temper will not lengthen ur life.
also, i love u, dad.

well, i guess it's time for a reality check.
gotta focus on my studies and be prepared for being independent back in perth again =/

GOSSIP GIRL!

2008-01-31T17:53:00.001+08:00

yes yes! Gossip Girl! i've finally finished watching season 1 and i love it! an enthralling series which portrays the secret lives of the upper east siders in the new york city. oh, whn is season 2 coming out??

i love the actors especially Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford) who is currently seeing Carrie Underwood. They say he looks pretty much alike with Zac Efron, but yea, he may have some resemblance to Zac Efron, but i thk he's much much cuter, and hotter too.

there you have it.

i love his eyelashes! They're so long and makes his eyes look so dreamy and enchanting.

okay, enough said. now to the serious part.

time flies! i cant believe it! only 17 days left before i get my butt on the airplane back to perth. nooooooooo..

i don't wanna go back!! all those lonely nites where i only have my laptop as my closest companion. all those kuching food n mom's cooking that im gonna miss, no more hanging out at nite with a bunch of close friends, talking crap and laughing at those stupid jokes, (which r actually quite funny at times).. no more badminton games with clowns (you noe who im talking abt), no more astro, no more 42 inch LCD tv for me to watch, no more comfy queen sized bed for me to sleep in, no more cute little sister for me to hug and kiss, no more wira for me to drive around.. ugghh, all i'll b having is a smartrider card for me to get on the bus, and a room with a single bed, a table and a chair for me to put my laptop and my books. =(

Suffice to say, i'm gonna miss home. i know it. =(

Shi-Sha anyone?

i am still alive

2008-01-19T23:12:00.001+08:00

i am still alive.

i have nth much to blog abt lately ( actually im juz lazy to blog )

too many thoughts, too complicated feelings.

been addicted to learning photoshop tricks. no, im not pro yet. but i've juz learnt that we can actually make the teeth look whiter, make the blemishes go away, make the eyes more defined, even change the shape of the eyebrow, and make wrinkles go away with a few easy steps using photoshop. heh heh heh. there's more for me to discover!

been very "hardworkingly" practising to play 'qing tian', 'e zuo ju zhi wen', and the latest one 'apologize' with the piano. and apologize is damn hard so don't ask me to play it for u.

my beloved susan is coming bck tomorrow. whoopie~

i am currently waiting for my dad to come bck from thailand and go to the airport to bring him home.. n dat is y i am blogging now coz i have nth to do and i cant go to sleep.

Happy New Year!!

2008-01-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

ahahah.. was abit disheartened whn my dad forbid me to go countdown wif u guys.. but then..
wakakka.. i LOVE YOU ALL! really made me feel a lot better! here are the stupid , but cute actions that brightened my first few minutes of 2008! MWAHHHHH~

stupid dragon.. who could ever get used to that face? lolx

big mouth n drunk ben jing!

gay birdie~
chu!
chu!!
chu!!!
dunno wad action this is..
high debbie~
yuan u look like an ape
hua set, so happy ah?
getting ready for countdown..
ok ok.. fine.. u guys get to drink..
y do i haf frens like these??
chu, but simply adorable!
chu qin..
no idea where this came from.. who's hand was that again?
xiao xu kissing me.. wahhaha.. muacks muacks muacks!
hm.. wad's dis aagin? oh ya.. stupid dragon dancing at the bck.. lol.. damn funny!too bad i didn't catch the pic with ur half naked butt. but good also coz 儿童不宜。。
my sis AND my mom reads my blog ya noe??

i don't wanna see wat's behind that hand
fat la u!!
dancing in front of me again..
if u don't understand wad they're doin in this pic, then juz forget it..
same goes for this one..
xiao hai zhi!!!!! look at her happy face..
seriously drunk jason. couldn't even pose still in front of the camera for me.
haha.. mwah mwah mwah debbie and yen cin!
another drunk fella, stick chen jian
happy tracy! lol.. were u drunk that time??
Thanks u all! even tho i wasn't there with u guys, but definitely felt close to u guys!
MWAH MWAH MWAH! i LOVE YOU ALL!
Happy 2008!
( ok, i'll bring those nougats and candies i brought back from auzzie next time we go out. keep on forgetting mah.. )

cheers~

2007-12-30T17:03:00.000+08:00

不知不觉， 2007年已接近尾声。。好快。

但是，为什么我对2008年的接近到来，一点也不感到兴奋？反而，我对未知的未来，有着莫名的害怕与恐惧。。一直告诉自己，不管未来有什么在等着我，我也能够坦然去面对，好矛盾。。原来我一直在隐藏着自己懦弱的一面。。因为。。。。。。

生活中充满着许多的不确定。
一直在寻找自己，但是怎么找，也找不着。。我失去了自己了吗？
恐怕，是的。

BEHOLD! 98 pictures ahead.. only read whn u're really really really free

2007-12-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

u have no idea how long it took me to shrink all these pics and to upload them up here. so better appreciate them.

i'd like to start off with a very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MISS GLENDA CHIA!

and now... THAILAND - KL

Day 1 - Hatyai

14 of us departed from KL, by car, and it took us around 9 hours to reach Hatyai (a small town in Thailand juz at the border of Malaysia n Thailand ). we were hungry n so decided to have lunch. As none of us knew Thai language, this was our only resolution to ordering food..

cute ey?

turned out they understood wad we drew and served us sum delicious food!

tom yam - doesn't look spicy but definitely VERY SPICY!!!

this is called the Tuk-Tuk, which is the 'taxi' in thailand.

Mango Rice. YUMMY~

1 thg abt Thailand dat u will notice is that their wires are always, always, ALWAYS in a mess.

get wad i mean?

these stalls are more or less like the lok-lok stalls that we have. but their bbq squid is very very nice!

Day 2 - Krabi
took us half a day to reach Krabi from Hatyai

this is the national park. there's supposed to be a famous waterfall inside that we wanted to see. but we juz found out that it cost us 200 baht = RM20 juz to get in and see the stupid waterfall. so we decided to leave.

not forgetting to take a picture first!

Day 3 - Phuket
went straight to Phuket after the boring Krabi trip.

one of the seafood restaurants which is juz beside the sea! how romantic..

crabs with blue claws

lobster

in case u're wondering, no they are NOT cheap. not evythg in Thailand is cheap.

if anyone of u has read Kenny Sia's blog, yes, this island does exist. the infamous SIMILAN ISLAND

Day 4 - Phi Phi Island

my stupid sis n me on the ferry

and i went snorkelling! it was a hell lot of fun! i can juz summarize my first snorkelling experience with :
1) drinking lots and lots and lots, and i mean lots of salty sea water
2)there are beautiful corals under the sea evywhere
3) seen many colourful fishes which i've never ever seen in my life
4)whn u swim with a school of fish, its actually rather ticklish

n now, juz sum beautiful pics of the scenery

the bird's nest cave

after snorkelling and we reach Phi Phi Island

Day 5 - James Bond Island

one of the staff briefing us on the canoeing and describing the islands

me, calvin and jeff

look! pink canoes! that's the oyster cave

this is wad we call 'stepping on 2 boats with 1 leg'

in the cave on James Bond island

this is the famous james bond rock

on the way back , we noticed there were lots of eagles flying behind our ferry.. it was a magnificent view. one that i will never forget

went to Jungceylon to shop which is located at Patong

how can anyone eat that ? they say it tastes like KFC though. i never bothered to try.
and now, the SIMON CABARET ! ( which is commonly known as the AGUA SHOW )here we are!

the opening

they had the Dream girls theme

the china dynasty theme

the forest/jungle theme

the 'zhong guo wa wa' theme. this is a pic of the agua trying to kiss one of the audience

the korean theme

the flower theme

the hong kie theme - she was singing a hongkie song

the egyptian theme

lastly, the closing.. there were actually more other shows but i decided not to put them all up here.

look! how pretty are they??!

this is my favorite of all!

n this is my prince charming!! he's soooooooooooooo handsome leh!!!

wakaka.. n i had a chance to take a pic with him, offering him 20 baht = RM2 as tips. he looks much much better in person!

Day 6 - rifle shooting and elephant trekking

we went rifle shooting! nolah.. i didn't play.. last day alrdy used up all my money

the elephant saying ka-bun-kap ( means thank you, not sure if i spelt it correctly onot though ) they went elephant trekking - riding on top of the elephant while they bring u into the jungle

beautiful view on top of ... forgot the name of the place

me n my sis

cute leh?? guess which one am i

dinner at Tunk - Ka, famous for it's iced coffee

Day 7 - Christmas Eve and also the last day in Phuket

at Patong street.. check out the sexy ladies ( or shud i say sexy guys )

its weird coz in Phuket, they celebrate Christmas Eve by litting 'Kong Ming Deng', there were a few fireworks but wasn't interesting at all.

these are all the 'Kong Ming Deng' lit by people

oh yes, i forgot to mention. ppl in Thailand LOVE their king like wat. they have the posters of their King everywhere! i really mean EVERYWHERE. and they wear yellow shirts every Monday to show their respect for their King.

another place with a weird name - Chiao Lan Lake

end of Thailand - we departed from Phuket at 9am , and reached KL at 2am the next day.

Day 8 - KL - Christmas Day!

@ Pavilion

love the Christmas feeling!

my heaven!! Juicy Couture!!! love their bags lahhhhh

n i had the chance to try to famous J.CO donuts. yum~~

still in Pavilion

@ Naili's a restaurant decorated Bali style

needless to say much. the pictures wil tell.

the next day i went back to Kuching. end of my trip.

finally! good nite!

MERRY X'MAS!

2007-12-18T12:23:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Christmas Tree @ Travilion

Early X'mas Greetings to all of u!
As u all noe, i'll be goin to KL tml (19/12) and will only be bck on 27/12.. so..

MERRY CHRISTMAS n HAPPY NEW YEAR!so pretty leh!me n ling lingme n stupid dragon

At Secret Garden

all photos ' sizes have been shrinked to cut short d uploading time. Whoever wants the original size photos come find me =P

Kee Yiaw, Bing Heng, Alfred, Miaw n MESherwin, Debbie n MEMiaw Miaw ME n Small Kid!Ling Ling, ME , tracy and Miaw miawBen Jing, Alfred, Me n stupid dragonME, sherwin and glenda

Gu YONG and ME

Stupid Dragon's Stupid faceBird's Sleepy face

wheeee~~~

@ Jalan Song

ben jing's striken face n kee yiaw

kee yiaw, glenda, me n miaw miaw

me n small kid!

Bird's high face

@ Bing Heng's kopitiam - Breakfast!

Badminton @ Winner Court
Ho Ho! 17 of us..

After badminton, we went to 'eat ice' at .. forgot the place's name.. sumwhere near Satok
Sherwin , ME n stupid dragon kek cute-ing wahahaha

Ok..
i know i look fatter, yes, i've got many of that comment alrdy, so, save it.
i know i look more 'mature', n yes i've got many of those as well, so, save it too.

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a post i owed u guys long long time ago

cute chocolates in David Jonessoooooo cute lehhhhhh pink chocolate!
not-so-big n not-so-pretty christmas tree in perth city
in Singapore ChangYi Airport

even the small Christmas tree in the airport is prettier than the one in Perth.

Last but not least, Merry Christmas n have a nice holiday! =)